drowning in my thoughts.

first love.

Damn. Talk about perfect. How can one person be so amazing? You are such a beautiful human. Your kind soul, gentle touch, and loving arms make me powerless. You are my weakness. Everything about you leaves me in awe. Your laugh is contagious, and I would die just to hear it again. Your heartbeat is soothing. It beats rapidly when you're in close proximity to me. I could listen to it for hours. Your eyes glow when you look at something you love. How do I know? You once loved me. Hell, maybe you still do. Do you? Do you still love me? Because I would run back to you in a millisecond. I miss my best friend. My soulmate. My one and only. I love you. I always have. You make me stupid happy. You make me laugh until I can't breathe. You are my sunshine. You brighten my days. You made me a better woman. You made me strong. You helped me become who I was always meant to be. But you walked out. When you left, my world became covered in darkness. Nothing seemed right. Without you in my life, I'm sad. I'm incomplete. I need you and only you. But you don't need me. You're doing just fine on your own. I'm glad you're happy, but I'm miserable. Everyday I think about calling you, but would you even pick up? Let's find out.

Update: I got no answer...straight to voicemail. I froze. I was heartbroken. I had no clue what to say. I was speechless. So I sat there, and I thought. And then I thought some more. And after what seemed like years of thinking, I brought myself to speak.

"I'll love you forever and always. Thank you for priceless memories, endless laughs, and for being my first love and best friend all in one."
                              
                                        - xoxoxo 💋