The Green Eyes I Fell For (Lauren Jauregui/You)

Chapter |18|

I'm like sick and so if this doesn't make sense I'll rewrite it and tell you when tell me if it makes sense? Sorryyyy

Your point of view:

"You can't stay in your room for ever Y/n... it's not healthy!" My mom said from the other side of my door, I just laid in my bed eating chocolates.

It's Sunday, all weekend I stayed in my bedroom because well... I'm upset of course. My mom keeps on telling me I need to come out of my room because it isn't healthy how I have been in here for two full days without coming out for a meal, the only way I would eat is if my mom finally gave up and brought me some food.

I honestly don't know why this hurts as much as it does, Dinah thinks it's because I am in love with Lauren but I don't know if that's accurate.. I just like her more than a like but not love... did that make any sense?

I've thought about what Dinah said, it only would make this situation worse if I admitted to her and myself that I might actually be in love with Lauren; the asshole who kissed Camila.

Maybe I should talk to Lauren...

Groaning I sat up in my bed, frowning down at the empty Reece's wrappers in my hands; Reece's remind me of Lo.. ugh fuck me man.

Grabbing my phone I opened the conversation with Dinah.

Dinah😋💕

My mom keeps bugging me saying me being in my room for two days is unhealthy😩 I don't wanna go and face real life problems today!
[12:23 pm]

Your mom is right boo, you can't stay inside all day... you can come hang out with me but you need to talk to Lauren
[12:24 pm]

And Camila...
[12:25 pm]

No wtf dude no!
[12:26 pm]

Yes, I'm coming over.. I also texted your mom saying I'm coming over to pick you up and that you're spending the night.
[12:28 pm]

Hold on... you have my moms number?
[12:29 pm]

Shut up and get ready because you're going out in public idiot🙄
[12:30 pm]

***

Rolling my eyes I just sat up, slipped on my nikes and then just put a hat on before I headed downstairs lazily.

"Honey... you look horrible! Why won't you just tell me what happened?!"

"Lauren is what happened Mom." I said and opened the door as soon as Dinah knocked.

"Holy shit..." Dinah said looking at me eyes wide, must be because I look like death.

"I know don't say it." I said shutting the door behind me walking beside Dinah to her car and I saw the girls in the car except for Lauren and Camila.

"Don't think about it." She said knowing I was going to turn back around and lock myself inside.

Sighing I got in the front passenger the girls went wild and started saying hey and how am I.

** ** **

"Guys..." Ally began and we all gunned in response as we walked into Dinah's house.

"I wanna get waffles, you know me!" She flopped down on the couch making us laugh. "Maybe we can go sometime this week."

Normani laughed and said yes, I sat down on the cough and laid my head on Dinah's lap until I heard the fridge in her kitchen shut. Uh... that's weird Dinah's family is out and the girls are all in the same room as me, oh hell no if there's a ghost in this mother fuckin house I'm out!

Footsteps made their way to the living room and my heart began you beat faster when I realized who is standing in front of me, she looks worse than me.

"Dinah you didn't tell me she was here!" I sat up and hit her arm receiving looks from all the girls, apologetic ones of course.

"We said you guys are going to talk today.. so talk. Please I hate seeing my best friends fighting."

"No." Is all I said and I could see the hurt on the green eyed girls face.

"Y/n, Y/m/n, Y/l/n, go outside with Lauren now and work this out." Dinah said and I groaned walking outside but shitting the door in Lauren's face.

The door soon opened and Lauren stood next to me. "Y/n.." Lauren began her voice soft, you can hear the pain she is feeling through her voice and it makes my heart ache.

"I miss you." She fidgeted with the sleeves of her shirt looking at me, I turned my head away because I couldn't look at her anymore.

All I could say was, "I miss you too.."

"What I did... it was wrong, I did it out of the moment."

"Did you? Because you turned the kiss into a make out session with the girl who you told me you don't like that way." My anger starting to rise but I try and keep calm.

"Baby I know I hurt you, and I know you think I'm this horrible person... I'm sorry."

"You could've told Camila that we were together and some of this would be avoided..."

"I know Y/n but you know Camila, if she heard you and I were a thing especially from me she'd lose her shit..."

She is kind of right though, Camila is kind of insane.. just kidding all jokes aside Camila gets mad easily.

I stood there looking down at my hands thinking of what to say next, because I'm all honesty I have no words.  I am brought out of my thoughts when Lauren's hands intertwined with mine.

"Baby give me a second chance this is new to me okay?"

"What do you mean this is new to you?"

Lauren sighed running a hand though her hair, "Y/n I haven't been in a relationship for a while please... give me a second chance. I don't know what else to say." She begged and I looked at her with emotion filled eyes, I know if I don't take her back I'll be hurting even though this wasn't a big bad thing.

I'm falling in love with Lauren Jauregui and I can't stop myself...

"I think I'm in love with you."  She said moving closer to me her breath against my skin.