He stared at me that night
With his red and tired eyes
With hia deep eyes
While smiling he said to me
"Mo, hug me please"he begged as if his life were depending on it.
And of course i hug him
I hug him tightly
His hands down to my waist
He hold me closer than ever
His face buried on my shoulder
He smells alcohol, cigarette and vanilla mint
I don't even know how vanilla mint smells like
But, Vanilla Mints that always remind me of him
His face moves to my neck
He kissed me there with his cherry pink lips
I put my hands on his chest
Tried to resist the lust in me
But he finally succeeded
I was hot and needy
I let him explore what he wants
Because clearly needed that right now
"hnn what happened to you daniel?"i asked after trying so many times to get my breath again
" i just feel glad, I'm having you. My Pure girl"he answered, as he let out a big sigh as if he contended with his feeling
"hey, I'm always here, i can reassure that"
"no, don't tell promise you can't do"
He broke the hug and stared at me again
His black bag and tired eyes
His pouty lips
His current chubby cheek that I like
"I'm corrupted mo, you can't be someone like me. I'm ugly"
Wow.
He said those words while being beautiful.
Liar.
"no you're not, you're like the mostt bea---"
He stopped me with his lips, he kissed me passionately.
He shut me up as if he didn't wanna hear what i want to say
Like always he thought he's ugly and unworthy
And like always, I'm beside him, hug him whole night to reassure that he's worthy, he's being loved.
He has those times,
The time when he's in his lowest mode
The time when he would cry whole night calling her mom in his sleep
The time when he feel anxiety and couldn't do anything
He's not always like that
But when that time comes
I'll be beside him
Hug him and whispers some sugar coated words
Because he needs that
Because guy wouldn't always be strong
He can be weak
And I'm the one who see he's weak side.
Oh God, i love him, i love Daniel
