[it supposed to be about bad boy but i will post it here because i don't where to post it haha]
"I have feeling I'd be dead soon"
"of course you stupid. Everyone will be dead"
"No, i think i will die young"
Momo flabbergasted with what Daniel said. He said in the most relax voice as he chug down his whiskey. She could see his tiredness from the black bags under his eyes and how he never sleep for at least 56 hours. Momo really want to come closer to him and give him big hug. But she chose otherwise. She keep mum and sitting beside him as she sipped her milk--she can't drink booze or coffee so Daniel warms his milk for her.
Her finger fidgeting and sometimes trembling. It shows her nervousness. She couldn't do this, showing sympathy and assuring someone into something that she know won't be. That's why Daniel loves being with her. She never try to comfort him with words but with action instead. And she being nervous really amuse him in a good way.
Daniel's hands reach out to Momo's. They're holding hands tightly while watching the night sky. They both sitting near the balcony leaning to the wall. There's no certain event between them. It just their usual routine where they sitting outside and refresh their mind with some polluted air in big city. Not that much refreshment but it could ease their intense muscles.
"My brother was dead, young." Momo stated, she remember how her brother kill himself more than twice until it success for him but not for herself. She found it very shocking, yet understandable. She knows very well how pains blinded her brother and it almost blinded her too. Somehow, she already prepared her heart for the worst like waiting cancer patients stadium 4 waiting their time. While she tried so hard to made her brother in his right path, she prepared the worst. And it happened. And she realized she's wrong all the time. She can never be prepare and she regret it.
That's why Momo doesn't want it happen to Daniel. She doesn't want it happen again. Not again. But, she always failed to let out her own feeling. She always failed to let other know she actually cares. Daniel isn't like her brother, he really honest with his pain. He never try to hide it from Momo and it made her happy.
There's no word come from Momo. She rubs his hand instead, trying to reassure him that she's here beside him all the time. Transfer all the positive energy left of her to Daniel. She's desperately wanna make him feel at ease.
"How's your day?" asked Daniel, his head turned to Momo as he stared intensely.
"it's good" answered Momo mumbling to her milk and sipping it.
"I'm not"
"I know," Momo turn her head so they both looking at each other, "what should i do to make you feel better?" added Momo.
Daniel shift his body closer to her and whispered sweetly, "just be with me forever"
"I already am" she whispered back.
"I know"
Daniel lean to her shoulder and rest his head there,"Its hurt, Momo."
"Where? Which part?"
"inside"
Momo could smell Daniel's scent, a faint whiskey and masculine scent. Her hand reach up to his head. Rub and pat his head until there is a faint snore from him. Momo let out deep sighs. Depression is a monster. It could transform a very normal person to someone else. It may take our special one. And Momo certainly wouldn't let it happen to her loved one again.
"I will always love you, Daniel" said Momo.
That's one bad habit from Momo. She tells when others couldn't hear it, luckily Daniel hasn't sleep yet. Daniel let out faint smile and answered inwardly.
'I love you Momo'
