Shawn
I can tell that Cameron really doesn't want to talk to me right now, but I need him to hear what I'm saying. I head out towards his car and walk to the drivers side door, without announcing that he was there Cameron shved me out of the way and climbed into the car. "Am in not diving, I don't think you really need to be driving right now" I say making sure that I'm out of striking range. Without even answering me he slams the door shut and cranks the engine, I hurry over to the passenger door before he drives off without me. We pull out of the parking lot and I can tell that he's upset. "Cameron listen I know that your mad and I don't blame you but..." He slams on the brakes to get me to shut up. "Listen Shawn I'm not mad at you i'm upset that you lied to me you know about the hole I love you and i'm never, EVER going to leave thing" he says making sure that I know that he is serious. "Cameron I promise that I'm going to explain all of this but we really need to get out of the middle of the road" after he hears that he snapped back into his angry driving.
We finally make it home, or I mean back to his apartment and he gets out of the car, violently slamming the door. He walkes up to his front door and unlocks it letting it swing viciously and hitting the wall behind it. "Cameron please you have to understand that this is not my way of hurting you in any way." I say trying to sound compassionate and caring. " Ohh no Shawn mendes would never lie to anyone or give up on what others thought he believed in slash cared about...right?" Cameron walked back to the kitchen while I try to let him cool off some more before trying to reason with him. "Listen Cameron...what that?" before I can even finish trying to calm him he pulls a bottle of vodka out of the fridge. "Where did you get that, and how long have you had it?" I ask him while he takes the top off of the bottle. "The first one is none of your mmotherfucking buissness and the answer to the second one is on the way home from the woods. You know where you left me while you ran after your homophobic mother", "You better fucking leave my mother out of this Cameron, she did nothing to you and he's just not used to it" I say as cameron chuckles with every word. "No she's just a massaginistc asshole whose not satisfied with her life and wants to blame anyone she can for her unhappiness", "Cameron Im telling you, you better back the fuck off my mother before I knock you out", "Ohh what's the cuddly little Shawn Mendes going to do" he says while pushing my shoulder. "Cameron stop, I don't know if your drunk or whats going on but this isn't you and you shouldn't do something your going to regret" I say trying to get him to stop before I explode and hit him. "Ohh I'm so scared, so so scared of the little Shawn Mendes" he says while raising his fists like he's about to fight. "Cameron stop thi..." BAM, while trying to finish my sentence Cameron hits me right in the lower face. "What the fuck Cameron. What is wrong with you?" without answering me he swing again this time I duct and without thinking it through I hit him square in the face. I guess I got him pretty hard because he grabbed his face and fell down on the floor. "You need to leave before I call the police" Cameron says while still on the floor starting to stand up. "Cameron I don't want to leave I want to talk to you so we can both walk away from this without pain or quilt", "You need to leave right now Shawn" he says while standing up and looking at me in the eyes. "I'm just going to get my stuff and i'll be out of your hair forever, deal?" I ask, "No, you can come back later for your stuff but right now I just want you to leave", "Cameron I need to grab my stu...", "I said you can come back later now you have ten seconds to be out of my sight before I call the police" the look on his face being so serious that I could tell he wasn't joking, not this time. I start walking towards the door and before I leave I turn around and say one thing to Cameron before I leave..."I love you Cameron Dallas", then without waiting for a response I walk out of the door and pull it shut behind me.
Cameron
What just happened? Shawn just hit me the one person who I thought would never turn their backs on me just hit me in the face knocking me down, and didn't even ask if I was okay. I mean yeah I hit him too but not that hard. I don't know why he can't see that I just don't want to talk about this right now. Like honestly, I just want to be left alone. I also don't want to lose him, I don't think mentally that I can. I love him so much and even after all this all I want to do is go to my bed and cuddle with Shawn while he tells me everything is going to be okay. I'm going to talk to him tomorrow about not breaking up and him moving in with me. I know he doesn't really want to break up and that he's just doing it so that his mother doesn't "Shun" him, but i think if we talked to her togethe =r that she would be okay with it. I'm going to text him and tell him to swing by tonight so that we can talk. I really can't lose him.
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Cameron - Listen shawn why don't you swing by later. I was being a jerk and I want to smooth things out before you leave forever. Also I'm sorry that I hit you it was way out of line and I promise it won't happen again.
Shawn - k
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