Five.
I fell into Ru's arms. Tired from my shift and sad from Bey's departure.
"You're sad" she said as a statement
"I'm tired, just came from a 12 hour shift"
"You still love her Rob" she said again
I moved from her and covered my head with my couch pillow.
She removed it and tossed it on the floor. I groaned
"You need to tell her already. You can't deny it forever" she insisted
"I'm not denying anything. I don't love her like that" I denied
"Sure, and I'm not blonde" she rolled her eyes
"Well you're not blonde, you dyed your hair blonde. It doesn't count" I responded smartly
She threw another pillow at me.
"Don't be a smart ass Rob. You and I, in fact everyone with eyes knows that you love her more than anyone else could. Just tell her-" I interrupted her sob speech
"So she can reject me? I'd rather not" I turned on the tv to have something else to focus on.
"How do you know she will though? For all you know, she's as gay as you are" I chuckled softly
"Ru, how long have we been friends? Have you ever seen her look at a girl like that? You remember when you dared us to kiss? You remember her exact words after that? I can't put myself out there for someone I know will never feel the same"
Silence surrounded us after. I was trying to calm my breaking heart down. I could tell she was considering my words.
She turned to me moments later. A sad smile on her face.
"If I thought that to be true, I wouldn't sacrifice myself so you could have your happily ever after" she said sadly
"Sacrifice yourself? Ru, what are you talking about?" I asked curiously
I sat up when i saw a tear falling off her eye. She wiped it quickly then chuckled softly
"You know, Bey is not the only who's oblivious to people's feelings." She said.
We went to sleep shortly after. My mind was racing with questions and thoughts.
When we woke up the following morning, we didn't say much to each other still. Breakfast was quiet unlike usually.
I didn't know what to say. She looked like she was afraid to even look at me.
I went to work in a limbo. I passed through the day still considering Ru's words.
Is my best friend in love with me?
Is it a crush?
Is she afraid of pursuing her feelings because of my feelings for Bey?
I took out my phone and dialed her number during my lunch break.
She responded on the 4th ring. She sounded like she was still sleeping. It's 12 in the afternoon
"Rob" I smiled
"Hey babe, can we talk?" She went quiet for a while
"Uh.. Yeah sure. Now?"
"Yeah, I'll come home now. Are you still there?" I asked
"Yeah, I am. Sorry, I just knocked off after breakfast" i chuckled softly
"Don't worry about it, I'll see you in 15" I said before hanging up
I lived near the hospital so it didn't take long to get there.
I found her showered wearing my sweat pants and T-shirt sitting on my living room couch. I put my keys on the counter before making my way towards her.
"Hey" I said softly. She smiled with her soft gaze on me.
"Hey, you on lunch?" She asked. I nodded
"Yeah. Just needed to talk to you about last night. I couldn't stop thinking about what you said" I said fiddling with my hands nervously. I've never been nervous around her
"Rob, the way I feel about you doesn't change anything between us. You're still my best friend" she took my hand in hers, smiling at me.
"You're my best friend too Ru. I didn't want you to feel awkward or anything." She chuckled softly
"I love you Rob, that's never going to change. But I love you enough to know that you're in love with her and to support that. I'm rooting for Royoncé" she joked making me laugh a little
God, I love this girl
"I love you too RuRu" I leaned in and kissed her forehead softly.
Her hand cradled my jaw and she pulled me to her lips. Her lips were so delicate on mine. I pulled her closer, enjoying the warmth.
She was so small in my arms. Naturally she should've been a perfect fit but she didn't feel like Bey.
We pulled back from the soft kiss. She sighed hard. I could feel her breath shaking under me
"You have to get her Rob, you have to make this worth it. Please" she said softly.
