Two
By the time I made it back home, I was seriously considering Ru's offer. My hours were driving me insane. I worked 15 hour shifts for 5 days a week; my body was screaming for me to stop overworking myself and take a break.
I arrived inside my house to find the lights on in the middle of the night and the tv playing, I thought maybe Ru had decided to stay again. Which I didn't mind cause the girl made killer breakfast.
"Hey, I thought you'd sleep at work or something" I heard a voice I hadn't heard in weeks, one voice that had made my knees weak for 7 years straight
"Hey, I didn't know you were coming?" I walked over to the brown eyed goddess who had only grown more beautiful over the years
"I didn't plan on it honestly, I just needed a break" I sat next to Bey as she kept her gaze on the tv. I could see immediately that something was bothering her.
"Everything okay?" the worry in my voice was evident
She sighed tiredly,
"Yeah" she answered simply, but I knew better.
She rested her head on my shoulder and threw the blanket over my body to share. Her intoxicating vanilla scent filled my nostrils and I felt my senses relax immediately. The way she smelled was so unique, you could smell the gentle and sweetness of vanilla with something sexy and wild like rich spices. I don't know how to describe it.
"Tell me what's wrong"
I kissed the top of her head, I felt her body fall in mine and relax. She let out a softer sigh
"I found out about 3 months ago that Sam had been having an affair" my heart seized as her voice shook
She explained to me how she found out about the other woman and how her boyfriend of 3 years was keeping the affair and a child from her for months. My heart broke listening to her try to keep her composure as she spoke. It was hard for me to listen to the girl I am so in love with cry about how much some jackass broke her heart
"You'll be okay Bey, that asshole didn't deserve you anyway. Anyone who would ever cheat on you doesn't deserve you. You deserve someone who only sees you in a room full of beautiful women, who would only want to touch you and spend the rest of their life with you. One day, when you find that person I'll be there to tell you I told you so"
My heart seized with happiness when I heard her giggle at my statement. She sat up and looked at me with a small sad smile on her face; my eyes took in her features for the millionth time.
Each time felt like the first, my heart always skipped a beat the same way, my body warmed the same way and my mind always seemed to slow down the same way too. God, how could anyone even think of hurting her? I wondered
"Rob, I don't know what Keri was thinking when she cheated on you. She's such a dumb bitch" I chuckled when she rolled her eyes. I almost forgot about my ex, it would've hurt me if I was in love with her but luckily for me, I had my eyes on an actual angel.
"And Sam is a dumb bitch for cheating on you. We both dated dumb bitches, we got something in common" my attempt to take away her sadness worked a bit cause I managed to make her laugh but I could still see the sadness in those beautiful eyes. Suddenly I hated Sam intensely
She had already showered by the time I got back from work and made herself comfortable in my shorts and tank top which I didn't mind really cause she really looked so sexy in them.
I took a quick shower too before I made it to bed next to her, my house had a spare room yet my girl-friends always insisted on sleeping on my bed. I think it honestly has to do with me being gay if anything, those fucken pervs
"How's the hospital?" she asked as I got in bed next to her, because of her father's influence she's on the board of the hospital I work for
"The hours are killing me, I'm thinking of doing modeling" I yawned before my eyes landed on her beautiful face
"What about your mom's dream? I thought that's why you wanted to be a doctor"
I sighed, thinking about my mother; I still missed her so much. She was the first person I told about my sexuality and she acted like I told her I just breathed. We spoke about my crushes, the girls that asked me out at my old school and the kind of girl I wanted to marry. We spoke about everything and anything; in essence she was my best friend.
"I'm not throwing it away; I'm just... taking a break a bit. I still love being a doctor but it's too much pressure right now. Plus you know how persuasive Ru is" she chuckled softly
Ru can make us do almost anything she wants. She knows just what to say to make you agree even if you didn't plan to. In some way I wish I had her talent, maybe I wouldn't have to watch the girl of my dreams continue to date losers all the time
"I swear that girl has a hypnosis superpower" we laughed at that.
"I think so too"
"You remember when she dared us to kiss?"
Immediately the feeling of her soft lips against mine overwhelmed my mind, I still remember how she tasted. The memory was bittersweet, a moment after our kiss she said 'now I know I'm definitely not gay' and shattered any hope I had
"Yeah" was all I managed to say through the sour feeling that took over my heart.
Sometimes I get too lost in my feelings for her that I let my imagination run wild with me and then there are moments to remind me that I could never have her in the way I want her. She could never love me the way I loved her.
I wish I could stop feeling like this about her.
A/N
Hey guys! so I said before, I decided to re-write my first book. the old version made me cringe so badly so I decided to re-do it.
please comment and tell me if you like this version.
I will update as much as I can.
peace yall. love&light
