Fragile

Chapter7-Regrets&Lies

,,Did you know if you hug someone for 20seconds u make their life longer for 3 minutes?"-I said as we walked by hugged couple in park on bench.

-,,If its that so, they made eachothers life longer for a few days."-Jossy murmured low.
-,,Aren't you in those couple romantic kissy kissy stuff?"-I looked at her as we got closer to Jonathan's house.
-,,Are you kidding me?Jossy don't even like watching romantic movies with me.I always have to force her and she say those are cliché's.I think they are beautiful."-Andrea said.
Jossy rolled her eyes.
-,,They ain't real life."

I chuckled low.
-,,What?"-she asked.
-,,Nothing.I agree on your opinion."-I gave her a smile.
-,,But why?"-Andrea gave me a side look.
-,,Because"-I shrugged as I opened the door of Jonathans house.-,,There's no love story with happy end."

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-,,Never have I ever made out with same sex."
Andrea and Jossy were only ones who took a shot.
-,,You guys were never curious...?"
-,,No."
We were playing this stupid game since we got here, most of them were already quite drunk, I looked over at Andrea who had slow motion blinks as she was passing joint to Jossy who took it. Of course she did.
-,,Your turn AJ."-Alec took blunt from Jossy."
-,,I have never cheated in relationship."- this was easiest way to make people drink, but on my surprise only Andrea and Luke took a sip.
-,,For some reason I thought you were worse people than you actually are."-i chuckled.
-,,Never?"-I heard Jossys low voice.
I felt her gaze on me. Something was up with her tonight.It wasnt like her to be quiet and calm whole evening.Not Jossy I'm used to.

-,,Never."- I looked back at her.
She looked down at her drink.
Andrea was laying on sofa, her blinks slow. I took a sip from my bottle looking at how everyone else are. Maybe alcohol doesnt work on me anymore.
-,,Nah Aj doesnt smoke, pass him."-Alec said to Jossy who was about to pass me the blunt.She shrugged and was about to pass it back to him when I snitched it from her hand.
-,,I'll make exception tonight."- I smoked it and I felt heat from my throat down. I took two huffs more and held them in.
-,,Woaah dudee either I'm high as shit either this dude actually took weed."-Lukes head was on thr floor with closed eyes as he kept drinking his beer.

I felt Jossys eyes on me but I didnt look back. For unknown reason I was pissed at her. And it pissed me off more that I didnt know why I was pissed off at her. We finished blunt in circles, I wasnt that high but I could feel myself relaxing, I didnt even mind Alecs shitty music.I couldve fell asleep in minutes if I didnt felt urge to go to toilet.

After I flushed, I looked at myself in mirror. My cheeks were a bit flushed, my hair was messy and my eyes were red and sleepy. I started smiling at myself in the mirror as if wasnt my reflection.
-,,Duudee"-I murmured washing my face and drying it with towel. I just wanted to lay down and sleep.
I went outside the bathroom when I bumped into someone.

-,,Oopsie"-I smiled slowly at Jossy.-,,Its all yours now."
As I was about to walk past her,her hand on my arm held me back.
-,,Wanna make my life longer for 3 minutes?"-her shiny-sleepy eyes met mine as she opened her arms. My back was hitting the toilet door and I leaned on it for balance.
-,,Of course."-I wrapped arms around her shoulders as I felt her arms around my waist.We hugged for awhile when I was about to let go, but her arms didnt seem to lose up.
-,,A little more."
I hugged her again but this time I actually hugged her.I felt her arms gripping tighter around my waist,her body pressed on mine. I closed my eyes and went with fingers through back of her hair. God, Ive been wanting to do this for awhile. Her hands started moving up and down on my back, rubbing it. I felt her breath on my neck as she was raising her head towards me. This cant be good. I knew I shouldnt but I looked back at her, my fingers still in her hair.

I felt pair of warm lips quickly but softly pressing onto mine.
-,,This aint good idea."-I whispered but I didnt move for a bit.
As response I felt those lips on mine again a bit longer pecking mine.
-,,This really aint a good idea."
Me, or her, or both, reached for eachother,her arm was around my waist, my hands were on her cheeks, our lips pressed and moving together. I reached for door behind me and opened it,not breaking the kiss, next thing I know we're both in bathroom, her hand locking the door, my hand?
In her hair. Me? Lost. Everything started happening so fast. I couldn't control it.

One moment I felt my back hiting the wall, next moment it was hers back who clashed against wall. Our kisses? Rough. Breathless.
Her hands were in my hair, on my neck, under my shirt, around my waist.
-,,Stop, wait.."-I catched my breath as I was against her, as close as someone can be, breaking the kiss.
-,,We're drunk, we're high, youre going to regret this."
Her breathing was fast and heavy against mine, she put her hand on my chest and said low.
-,,If you dont want me, say so."-My sight was blurry, my breathing was uneven, I knew I should move but I couldnt. Do I want her?

I reached for her legs and lifted her up, holding her legs around my waist. Her arms were around my neck and our lips locked. Our tongues were touching, wrapping around eachothers. I breathed on her lips, couldnt get enough of them. She felt that, her body was shaking against mine, my heart beating like fast.

She pissed me off because I wanted her. She pissed me off because I didnt want to feel like this. She pissed me off because I couldnt walk away from her, instead I pressed myself harder on her, she responded on me tugging and pulling my hair towards her.
Her soft moans on my lips were like harmony.

I heard boom sounds a few times.
At first i thought that was my heart racing up but after I heard -,,Dude ill piss in this fucking plant if u dont let me in." I opened my eyes finally and broke the kiss.
We just stood there, eyes closed. Her forhead on mine,our breaths racing up.

-,,AJ I swear to God ill fucking piss right in front of this door."-
I placed hand on back of her neck and pressed my lips on her forhead.With that I unlocked the door and went outside pass Luke who was leaned on door knob, running inside not even having a clue what just happened.

What did just happen?