Fragile

Chapter 8- Knock, knock

-,,I'm beyoooond excited that you're finally coming for lunch with my parents"

I was sitting on my bed, rubbing my pulsing head and holding phone on my ear with another. I couldn't sympathise with Alana because all I wanted right now is to stick my head in the fridge and slam its door on my head.

I really didn't want to do this "family lunch" thing today, but what should've I said? Hey Alana I can't come to the lunch with your parents today. Why? Oh no big deal, I smoked a joint, drank God knows how much alcohol, made out with this chick who is driving me insanse in Jonathans bathroom and I can feel my stomach in my throat. No big deal.

-,,Uh..-I cleared my desert dry throat-,,yeah can't wait either..look Alana I need to te-"
-,,YES?OKAY I'M COMING"-she shouted to someone in background-,,Hey baby listen I have to go, my mom needs help with potatoes, we're making them creamy"-I swallowed hard in urge to throw up at the mention of food-,,but I'll see you in a few hours. Bye baby!-she hung up before I had a chance to say anything else.

Damn she's really excited about this. Shit. Asshole, asshole, asshole.
I threw myself on bed rubbing my face like that would change anything that happened last night.

How did I let that happen?

I need to get my shit together and I need to do it fast. I'm supposed to be in a bus in less than 2 hours.

I took a cold shower, brushed my teeth 3 times, almost gagged whenever  toothbrush touched my tongue.
I had to button my shirt while sitting down because I felt pain in my stomach when I stand. I was thinking about taking some meds but i still had alcohol in my blood.

I took my jeans on and my sneakers, brushed my hair back. This should do it.
I faced myself in the mirror.

I look like absolute shit.

I had black circles under my eyes, which were watery and red, shaped in two minuses.
I was pale like my body didnt see the sun in two weeks.
I put some perfume on like im trying to erase scent of alcohol and her. Her.

I didn't hear a word from her, it's probably for the best. After we kissed and I ran out on her, I went back to the living room with others, no one even noticed me. They were all pretty smashed and Jossy came not so long after me and haven't made a single look towards my way. Soon after that I went home with quiet ,,bye".

I picked some roses for Alana's mom and went in bus. To be honest I looked like I came from apocalipse with overdosed perfume and most probably heading to my own funeral.

When I came in front of Alana's house, I pressed ring bell and waited.

Rest in peace, you fucking asshole.
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-,,Do you like the food Andre?"-Alana's mom Marie asked me thoughtfully pointing at my plate that had nothing but a piece of bread and a tomatoe on it.

-,,Oh umm"-I brushed fingers through my hair and sit straight in chair.-,,Yeah mrs.Lee, everything looks delicious, I'm just uh"-trying not to throw up my soul at your potatoes, chicken and most likely whole table.-,,preparing myself, for uh.. you know, going into it."

I swallowed hard. Going into it? Really?
What are you gonna do AJ, fuck the shit out of this chicken?

Alana looked my way smiling, Marie gave me a soft smile and her dad fixed her glasses.

-,,Please don't hold yourself back, I know you live alone and you probably don't have time to cook for yourself everyday."
-,,He actually cooks very good, mom"-I do?-,,once he made this amazing lasagna when I was at his place."