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Prologue

I lay down on my bed and curl up under the blanket. As I beg for sleep, it doesn't come. I instead let my mind wonder in the depths of my imagination. Maybe I could think of some anime I haven't touched in awhile.

As I search for entertaining thoughts I stop to go through a old door of my imagination. As my mind steps through I see what it contains, love. At first I see my family, that's boring so I move on. I walk to my old pets, I can feel the weight of the faint sad memories. I quickly run past the pets to the next area. My run turns to a walk as my eyes widen. The crushes. I look around for the next place but I don't see anything new. My thoughts slowly levitate into the group as I try to find a way out. I finally accept my fate. Starting out at square one. I see the first girl I dated. I cringe, I was very sure I was gay but I just needed to accept her. It was a huge mistake on my part but it's fine now. I see Heracles. I see all the time I spent wondering about what could happen and feeling like that he was the one. I tried so hard to figure things out, to make the note, find his locker, find a time to deliver the note. All of this to get a broken answer and wasted time on confusion. I still don't know what happened with him. Finally I get to the latest entry. Alfred. I feel a stab of nerves in my stomach just from the name. I share P.E and Spanish classes with him. He never was that attractive at first, but now, he somehow seems like the hottest person I've ever known. Speaking of school, it's a school night. I need to get to sleep.

I blow all the thoughts away as I return to reality and cuddle into my blankets and pillows even more. My eyes close tighter as I actually try to sleep. I can feel thoughts of Alfred push into my mind and starts shouting for attention. I toss and turn all night as I push thoughts that keep running into my mind. I 'wake up' the next morning with no sleep and Alfred running through my treadmill of a mind. Great way to start the week.