Chapter 3.
(short chapter)
Love&Neglect.
Big Mistake!
I woke up to find myself in Ivan’s bed.I looked down and saw him dozing of on the floor;I pushed my hair back and sighed slowly as I stood up tip-toed past Ivan and went to the bathroom. I washed my face-brushed my teeth and sat on the toilet. I began to get that ‘urge’ again I wanted to feel my blood ozze out I wanted to feel both pleasure and pain at the same time. But then again what about Ivan his words began to play again and again in my head. ‘The next time you cut yourself I will do the same thing only deeper and longer’ My thoughts were interrupted by the knock on the bathroom door.
“Ivan man common get yourself out the bathroom I need to piss” I jumped at his voice and stood up to open the door it was him. The guy that showed me mercy I stood there shocked and scared not knowing what to do.
“Erm”
“Hey Pandora” He had an evil grin on his face he pushed me into the bathroom with my back against the wall.
“When I’m I going to get my payment.” He whispered as he breathed on my neck. I was terrified the made the biggest mistake of coming here; I tried to come across as someone that wasn’t scared but deep down I was terrified.
“So you can fuck my brother but not me?” He said with arched eyebrows.
“I’m not sleeping with your brother he just helped me in my time of need” I said trying stand my ground; my hands began to shake He looked at my hands and smirked.
“I know you want me that’s what you were made for; to be a dirty hoe that they sell for drugs with your crack head mum” he laughed as every word he announced hit the centre of my heart; His words hurt more than when my Mum abused me. I began to cry; tears flowing out like the river Nile; Before I knew what was going on my hand attacked his left cheek. He looked at me as he was about to hit me Ivan’s voice saved me.
“Pandora where are you” I heard from his room. The guy rushed out the door and I caught my breath and wiped my eyes.
“Pandora wh_” he stopped as he looked at me with so much love and care in his eyes.
“Come here” He opened his arms and gave me the most beautiful hug in the world. He was so warm and I felt so safe in his hands.
“You okay?” He asked as he rubbed my back.
“I’m fine” I smiled weakly and left the bathroom for him to freshen up.
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Me and Ivan were in the living room watching CSI:Miami.
“The way Harishio thinks he’s some don”
“LOOOOL Alie when he takes of his glasses in my mind I’m like I beg you put your glasses on” I laughed as I heard a knock on the door. I sat on the sofa comfortably as I starred at my wrists; everything was so perfect now- I didn’t have to hid my scars from him; I didn’t feel so self-conscious anymore. I sighed slowly as a group of boys walked in they all stop laughing as they saw me.
“ Erm Pandora meet Keon , Kareem , CJ , Cameron and Harriet my Cousin” They all said hi and smiled expect Keon think coz we started off on the wrong foot. I smiled slowly and moved slowly.
“Hmm looky here as you see me I am very very hungry so I’m going to relocate myself to the kitchen” Karrem said and everyone laughed.
“What ever just don’t empty out my fridge; You hungry Nigerian I knew they starved you when you were young it’s so sad” We all laughed and continued to watch CSI. I was so conscious about my scars I tried not to drag any attention to myself. Didn’t want people to think I’m some freak who cuts herself all the time.
“So Pandora which school do you go to?” Harriet asked with a big smile.
“Ohh erm Lakewood Academy” I said as I fiddled nervously with my fingers.
“Ohh cool” After that it was silent I just sat there and starred at everyone while they were all talking and having fun. I sighed slowly as I realised that I’m not part of their ‘group’ for the first time in my life I felt left out. I got up and began to talk out.
“Pandora where are you going?” Ivan asked?
“Home I’ll see you la_” Kareem cut me off.
“What happened to your wrist?” He said as he munched on a piece of chicken.
“Erm... Nothing” I ran past him and ran upstairs. I curled up in a ball at the corner of Ivan’s room and began to cry. This time these were tears of shame, regret and the feeling of total rubbish. I continued to cry. My tears are the only things that let me release my emotions.
“Why me?” I looked at my wrist I saw my wrists staring right back at me; judging me looking right back at me.
“Its not my fault!” I shouted as I hit the wall and tears continued to flow out of my eyes.
“Pandora the police is here for you” Ivan said as he looked at me with sympathetic eyes and hugged me as I cried.
“Let’s go downstairs” I didn’t want to let go I wanted to hold him forever but I couldn’t he wouldn’t want to hold a freak like me. I sighed slowly and went downstairs.
“Pandora Wright we need you to come to the hospital.”
“Hospital? Why?”
“Your mother she had an accident”
