5 months, 2 days, 20 hours without you. I really miss you.
I'm doing okay without him though. It's been tough, even my best friend left us for another school. But I'm getting through it, making new friends as best I can and realizing just how sucky my so called friends from last year really are. I've got basically no one right now but myself and I'm pushing through it. After all, it's high school.
This year was supposed to be great. Next year you were supposed to be at my side finally. I was supposed to get a do over.
Instead he's gone, I'm here, BFF's gone, and I'm being fake me to everyone because real me has no friends. Real me is hated by her parents because she fell in love with the wrong person for them. My whole life is falling apart even without real me to get in the way.
Nothing turns out in my favor. Everyone tells you that's just part of being a teenager. But what if you're tired of being told your hopes and dreams are invalid, that you're stupid and nothing you remember actually went that way. What if you're tired of being forced to do shit you didn't sign up for. Maybe I am just a teenager, but I'm tired of sitting around and being told "we'll see how this year goes".
"Gotta pack my bags, leave my world behind. Take a different road, I know it’s my time. To open up my heart for another crowd. Play it strong and sing it loud. There’s empty places in my life and I need to breathe."(If anyone knows Degrassi:Next Class, thank you Maya Matlin for Last Exit) This is my anthem right now, so the first chance I get I'll finally have more than just my foot out the door.
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Letters to Nowhere
RandomThis isn't really a story or a book, but a diary. I'm hoping(as of today: 3/11/18) that I will never again feel the need to write in this... Knowing my life, we'll see how that goes. EDIT: Well... We can see how that went as of today(4/6/19)
