Speak Now (A Shoey Fanfic)

Chapter 1

His lips were soft. I could still feel them pressed against mine. It was unlike anything I've ever felt...

And it wasn't real.

It was a dare.

I let out an aggravated sigh. If I could go one day without thinking of that day... But every time I see his face, hear his voice, I remember.

But I wanted it to be real.

He has a girlfriend.

This will never happen.

But I still continued to act like it didn't affect me. That it didn't keep me up crying every night.

I want him and he will never want me.

I have to stop thinking of this.

But I can't. Not when Shane is probably about five minutes away from my house with some 'big announcement'. And I can't help but pray that it's that he confesses his love to me. But it won't be. It's probably another project he wants help with. And I'll help. I'd do anything for Shane. Would he do the same? Maybe he'd say the same for Lisa, I thought bitterly, but regretted it instantly. Lisa has a good heart, and it's impossible not to fall for Shane. She's just like everyone else.

Including me.

I stood up from the couch and proceeded to the bathroom. I looked up in the mirror. God, I looked as disgusting as I felt. I should freshen up before Shane gets here.

Fuck. I'm thinking about him again.

I splashed my face with cold water and looked back in the mirror. I flashed a smile. Be happy, I told myself. You'll be fine once he gets here. And I knew that was true. He always made me feel better. He better than anyone else ever has. He just has a way of making people laugh and smile and-

The doorbell interrupted my thoughts. Oh no, he's here and I still look horrible. I quickly took out my hair gel and fixed my hair.

"Joey, open the fucking door or I'm busting it open!" Shane called from outside. I smiled weakly.

"I'm coming, hold on!" I yelled. I quickly ran out to door and yanked it open.

"Well if it didn't take you long enough."

"Shut up," I hit him in the shoulder lightly.

His eyes lit up for a slight second. Maybe I imagined it.

"Babe! How dare you abuse me!"

"I'm sorry baby." I gave him a hug. It felt so good to have his arms around me...

Shut up, I told myself.

Shane pulled away first. Of course. "Look, Joey. I have some really big news. I don't even know how to tell you. Or ask you. Or whatever the hell, I just-

My heart was racing, "Shane," I put my hand on his shoulder, "What is it?"

"Well... How about we film a video first?"

My heart was slamming so hard I was scared he'd be able to hear it. "Why can't you tell me?" I nudged his shoulder with mine, "I am your boyfriend."

He let out a nervous laugh, "Okay well promise not to freak out."

I held out my pinkie, "I pinkie promise."

He wrapped his pinkie around me. Even the slightest touch sent me on a roller coaster of emotions. I'm pathetic.

"Okay... I proposed to Lisa." My heart evaporated. It didn't even break. It just disappeared. I felt nothing but the emptiness in my heart, and now I sit here calling myself a fool because I didn't even realize how serious this was.

I am in love with Shane Dawson.

And he's getting married.

I felt like dying.

"Joey, Joey? Are you okay?"

My mouth was dry. I've forgotten how to speak. I want to tell him no, that she's not the one for him. That the person who truly loves him is staring right at him trying to find the words to respond to his proposal. I want to tell him I've loved him for a long time, and that the kiss meant the world to me.

But all I could manage to say was, "D-did she s-say y-yes?"

Shane face lit up, and I could already feel myself crumble. I already knew the answer.

Of course she said yes.

Who wouldn't?

"Are you h-happy?" I can't cry. Not now. Not in front of him.

"Well of course! I-" He face sunk, "Are you though? You look like you're about to cry.."

I faked a smile, "Of course. I'm just so... Happy for you."

Shane's face lit up again. God, he was beautiful. "Aw, Joey. You're such an amazing friend. Which is what leads me to my next question."

"What is it?" I said as enthusiastically as I could.

"Would you be my best man?"

Great, just what I needed. To be the best man at the man I love's wedding.

But I would do anything for Shane.

I cracked another fake smile, "It would be an honor."

Shane pulled me in a tight hug. I wanted to stay like this forever. Because maybe, just maybe, if I held him along enough, he'd fall in love with me instead of Lisa.

But he pulled away first. Of course he did.

OKAY GUYS SO THIS IS THE FIRST PART OF MY SHOEY FANFIC. I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR THIS, AND I REALLY HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT SO FAR.

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