Speak Now (A Shoey Fanfic)

Chapter 14

My phone fell straight to the ground. I guess I couldn't contain it in my shaking hands.

I almost passed out again.

He's dead.

Oh hell, he's dead.

Shane gripped my hand, "Joey, what's going on?"

"D-David-" I could hardly talk. I could hardly hear anything over my heart slamming against my chest.

Shane gave my hand a squeeze, "Joey, what happened to him? He's not-" He shook his head, "He's not dead, is he?"

"I don't know. I don't-"

"Breath, Joey."

"This is my fault."

"No, Joey, calm down. None of this is your fault."

"Meghan wants me to meet her at the hospital. She said it's about David," My breaths came short and quick, "I don't know. I don't know what happened she didn't say."

Shane was now shaking me, "Please, Joey. You have to calm down."

I took in a deep breath. Calm down, or you'll never know what's wrong. I glanced up at his gentle gaze, "Will you drive me?"

He rubbed my back gently, "Of course," He kissed the top of my head lightly, "It's all going to be okay."

"What if... What if he died?"

"Meghan would have said something."

I guess he had a point.

Still though, I was worried.

"Come on," He helped me off the bed, "Let's get to the car."

We walked outside, and I leaned against Shane for balance. His arm was wrapped around me tightly. It was almost as if he didn't I'd fall apart.

He was probably right.

Being with Shane is the only thing that kept me sane.

"I'm sorry," I mumbled as we got into the car.

"Why?" Shane raised an eyebrow at me.

"It's just..." I sighed, "We were having such a good time. But then I panicked. And then I lashed out on you, and now this," I rest my head in my hand, "How could you even like me? I'm a mess."

"You are a mess," He laughed to himself, "Especially with that brownie batter on your face."

"I forgot about that," I groaned.

He smirked, "Yeah, like I said, you're a mess. And you drive me insane. Seriously, Joey, absolutely insane, and I can't believe I'm not in a mental asylum yet. But you're a beautiful mess. And you make me smile no matter the situation. You're presence is enough to make my day. And yeah, you're a literal fuck up. You're an absolute emotional wreck. But you're smile is bright enough to light every house in the country, and it brightens everyone's mood. You're smile saves lives, and you don't even realize it. And sure, you realized you were attracted to your best friend and it set your life on a whirlwind of emotions, but hey, you know what? So did I. I became attracted to my best friend, and now my life is an emotional whirlwind and I have no idea what to do. But I know that you mean so much to me. I don't care that you're a mess, because in all honesty, I am too. And technically, we shouldn't be together, but we just have something, and I can't let that go. And I know mess's aren't supposed to be with other mess's," He gently rubbed his thumb along my jaw, tilting my face towards his, "But there's no going back now. And I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful mess."

I was almost crying.

No, I was crying.

The idea of Shane saying such beautiful things to me was almost to much to handle. I never pictured him saying the things to me that I always wanted to say to him.