MEMORIES WITHIN

Memories Within A Dream

I feel so light. It's like if I try to jump, I could float in the air. What's going on? Where is this place? How come it's weird? I mean, it's like I'm in a black and white film. I chuckled. Is this a dream? Maybe, cause it's colorless and I haven't been here before, I guess?

I looked around and found out that I'm in a room that I'm sure a child's room. But, this place is kinda familiar. If only there's color I would know where I'm in. I saw a door, and when I'm about to open it, the place changed. I know now that I'm dreaming.

I'm in a living room now by the looks of it. There is a door and since I'm dreaming I'm gonna check what's outside. I walked pass through the closed glass door. Whoa! I'm not a ghost, am I?

I'm in a garden. It's beautiful even if it's lacking with colors and it is really familiar though. I heard the glass door opened and I saw a child running to the garden. I followed her.

"Mama! Mama look at this!" said the little girl that I think about 3-year old. Waving a coupon bond, maybe her drawing or writings, excitedly. I can't see it though. Then, I saw a woman planting something. Her back is facing me so I can't see her face. I heard her laugh. And I saw the child infront of her pout. She touched the child's head, comb her wavy long hair and place a flower behind her ear. I think it's rose. It's pretty. The kid smile at the woman showing her dimples. Cute.

"Lily my baby, your so adorable and I love you so much. I laugh because when I was at your age I can't draw a stick figure human. Well, I can't even hold a pencil properly. But you, look at this, this is really nice. You got your drawing skills from your papa. I'm so proud of you." said the voice that I misses a lot until now. I felt my hot tears flowing on my cheeks. I wanted to hug her, like how the kid is hugging her tightly.

"Mama...ma-mama, I-I'm here." I said softly as the tears flows unstopable, but she can't hear me. I can hear them talking about something happily. Now, I know I'm in my memory again.

I closed my eyes and opened it abruptly when I heard the child crying.

God, no! I don't like this scene. I wanna wake up now. I covered my ears, but still futile. Even if I close my eyes I can see the five-year old kid crying while shaking her mother's lifeless body.

"M-mama, wake up! W-why aren't-you wa-king up? Ma, th-theres b-blood. A-alot of blood." the kid wiped her tears with her bloody hands. Leaving a bloody smudge on her face. She touched the face of her mother and stifled her cries.

"Ma, open your eyes. You shouldn't sleep here, it's cold. And look I am not crying, I 'm a big girl now. I'm gonna show you something ma. J-just, open your eyes mama. I won't show it to you if you don't wake up." she said seriously.

"Please mama..." she burried her face in her mother's neck.

My heart is breaking. Like the child I can't stop crying. My knees are trembling. I sat on the floor. I want to wake up now. I want to hug the kid and tell her it's okay but I can't find myself up. I can't move. I can't even speak. All I can see is the child weeping then turns to be a sobbing kid who is still hugging the lifeless woman.

For a second I closed my eyes again and I feel like I'm hugging something cold and wet, something smell like blood. I opened my teary eyes. No, this can't be!

I am hugging the dead woman, and I can hear myself sobbing like the kid. My chest is so heavy.

I let myself hug the person for the last time. I can feel her in my little arms as I started closing my eyes.

"Mama......come back."

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I opened my teary eyes to see a pitch black surrounding. I felt myself hugging something soft. I didn't move for a while, adjusting myself of my surrounding and calming down my heart beat. It's like I just finished running in a marathon. Memories within a dream. Why do I keep on dreaming of her. Is it the right time? Who knows.

I let go of the pillow I was hugging and reached for the lamp on the bed-side table, when my sight adjusted from the dark. The light from my table lamp gives out told me that I'm in my own room.

I checked the time on my alarm clock and saw its time for me to get ready. My knees are still trembling but got up anyway and went straight to the bathroom.

I smiled bitterly and touch my necklace.

Mama... It's time to start for a new adventure. Just wait. I will know the thruth for sure. Just after this mission.

Author's note:

Hi everyone. This is my first time writing a story and finally publishing it here in wattpad. I hope you would read it guys.

Well, I have a lot of stories in my mind but I'm too lazy in writing and sometimes I just don't know how to put it in words. Or how would i start it. I know I'm not a perfect writer and sometimes I make mistakes that I am not aware of, like maybe I'm grammatically incorrect in some points or sentences or information, but I would like to tell you guys, I'm willing to be corrected. Cause I always learn from my mistakes. And also I just want to express myself in writing.

You can comment for suggestions and correction but please no harsh or violent reaction. Whatever. And, oh you might get bored at the beginning but please bare with it cause i suck at starting something.

This is a tag-lish story and if there are languages that you can't understand like waray, visaya, arabic, etc. I will always put translation in the end of the chapter if not stated within the part.

Lastly, this story is just in my imagination...

Thanks and have fun.

-Kirstyles-