After break for a while, someone found me.
Or I found him.
At the moment, I got myself again.
The dead girl is alive now.
His smile, his joke, his gently, changed her.
Turn her up.
Turn me up.
He made me move on.
He did.
I moved on from my candy.
Really moving on.
I thought I got a new candy.
Sweeter than ever.
Sweeter than I had before.
But why it feels so wrong.
I see his darkness.
I see his other side.
I see that.
But I ignore it.
I know but I pretend like I don't know.
I'm deceiving myself.
I lied to myself.
I'm too afraid to tell the truth.
I feel like I was blinded.
He makes me blind.
He makes me fool.
I'm totally blind, deaf, and unable to do anything.
Like I was bewitched.
What kind of magic that he has?
A month.
For a month I totally blind.
I believe everything he said.
You know what?
He makes me smile like everyday.
He is my type.
He is someone who could make me laugh after all I've been through.
A month.
Just a month I can totally believe him.
Then I found out that he was cheating on me.
She was pretty.
I'm totally jealous of her.
She's young, good looking, tall, long beautiful hair, rich, famous, she got everything.
And I guess, she absolutely smart.
Because when she find out about me, she broke up with him.
What a smart thing to do!
How about me?
I'm dumb.
I do that because I won't someone touch him.
I won't somebody have him.
I can't stand it.
So I forgive him.
That was the story about girl #1.
Next.
A few weeks after that, he cheated on me again.
This is girl #2.
She was pretty.
This time, I trying to play it cool.
I pretend to be someone that I wasn't.
I find a way to keep in touch with her.
And finally, she took the bait.
She asking me about who I am.
I said I'm just his friend.
But then something went wrong.
She said that her friend is his girlfriend right now.
So it's not her. It was someone else.
Damn. What a jackpot!
But I keep asking about her.
So she finally confessed that she was his girlfriend a week ago.
Wow.
Now he had a relationship with her friend.
What-a-jerk!
Blah blah blah...
Her friend chat with me.
This is girl #3.
She was pretty pretty.
And her language is not matched with mine.
She's too rude.
But I keep playing it cool.
She yelled at me, she mad, she talked too much.
So I decided to stop everything.
I chat him.
I want him to choose, me or she.
He said he want me.
But as I see, she won't let him go.
So I said that I wanna broke up with him.
Thirty minutes later, she said that he broke up with her.
Wow.
Another rude sentences come out for me.
And the dumbest me, come again.
I forgive him.
Next.
One day, he just promoted an account.
I invite that account and well, she accepted.
And guess what!
After all those curiosity, I find out.
She was his another crush.
Damn.
This is girl #4.
She said that he told her he was single.
Ugh then what do you think I am?
She asked me to stay with him.
But then disaster come.
He talks so rude to me.
Then I said I really wanna broke up with him.
But that night, he changed.
He said he was so sorry.
He apologized.
And guess what, I apologize.
What an idiot!
I don't know why I always found out about his mouse. Those girls.
Well I guess cat could sense any smell of mouse.
I just have 4 so far.
I don't know who else it could be.
Maybe 5, or 6, or 12.
Everything seems legal to him.
Then, everything is going well since.
Or I thought so.
