I thought I was finished with all those toxic things.
But actually, It's just became worse.
Toxic relationship that I have before (the candy things) is destroying me.
And this person who saved me from it, is more destructive.
He manipulate me.
He lied to me.
He deceived me.
And the stupid thing is, I can't go.
I just can't let go.
He makes me think that I'm not deserve the best.
I feel like he is my only hope.
Turns out that is just a mindset game.
He always trying to make me believe him.
Deep down I know that he is gonna repeat those mistakes again.
But I don't know why I doubt myself.
I didn't trust myself.
Or I denied myself.
I always have an excuse to forgive him and give him another chance.
So tired.
Really.
But I truly didn't know why I can't even believe myself.
Until that night.
