Your My Angel

Chapter Eight

~about a week later~
Laurens pov
Finished with all my classes for the day, Alex asked if he can come over to tell me somethings in privet. My heart was fluttering like crazy! Soon after he dropped me off at my house we head upstairs to my room. Alex slowly closes the door behind him.
"So?" I ask with a smirk. Alexander let's out a sigh looking at the ground.
"Alright Jhon, how much do you like me?" I chuckled slightly. "A lot! Duh." I said with a smile. Alexander ran his fingers through his hair walking over to me.
"Okay... how much do you love...me?" My face began to heat up. Yes! This is my chance! "Alex I love you bro! I mean I love you a lo-"
"Laurens I love you a lot t-"
"Yes! Then I can finally come out of the closet for you! I'm like totally gay for you Alexander... I know it's a lot to say but I have been-"
"Jhon..."
"Wait! I really love you man now that we can be together we don't have to hide it from my sis-"
"Jonny..."
"Wait! I wanna live the rest of my life with you, I wanna tell herc and laff in a special way maybe like-"
"Jhon Laurens!" Alexander raised his voice. I flinched and shook my head. "I'm sorry I scrambled off but-"
"I want to be with Eliza." Alex quickly said without taking a breath. My body completely stiffs up as I hear my heart pounding like crazy then slowly shatter like glass, my throat drys up starting to sting horribly.
"Y-You... wanna be with her?" I asked not making eye contact with him. I heard him sigh.
"Laurens... I really do love you a lot but I-"
"Why her!?" I yelled out of complete anger. "I'm so damn confused! Are you messing with my emotions, my fucking feeling bro!? Or should I even call you that! You like her because she's rich?! You can't be with me because I'm a poor man?! Like you kiss up on me and make me feel fucking loved and this is what i get! For years i loved you and yo-"
"It's for my legacy!" I took one small breath as I felt my heart being stabbed 1000 times in one spot. I stand there in silence as my brain feels like it's being scrambled like eggs. "Laurens I..."
"Get. Out." I say weakly.
"Bu-"
I pull out my gun and cock it pointing it towards Alexander's chest my hands shake horribly.
"Get out now! I don't want to talk to you!" Alexander nods picking up his coat slipping it on fast and heading out my bedroom door. I hear him walking down stairs and out my front door. I look over to the window and see him get into his car pulling out of my driveway. My heart picks up rapidly as tears fill my eyes and down my cheeks I begin to sob. Letting my depression get the best of me I lay down on my bed and cry into my pillow soaking it with my tears. I started shaking uncontrollably tears streaming from my eyes non-stop, please don't have a panic attack, please don't hsve a panic attack. I then just softly spoke to myself.
"I h-hate you A-Alexander... you have made my life not worth living."