Dreaming thoughts

                                                             Dreaming thoughts

Xzavia lays awake in her bed. She thought about what had happened yesterday and why. She was always alone and suddenly felt loved like she had never been loved. Xzavia has been having these weird dreams and thoughts, and some parts actually happen, or got really close to it. She just didn't seem to understand the gift she has gotten a few years back or even noticed it through those years. She just found out yesterday.

Flashback (6 years ago)

"Oh! This is a good song. Let's turn it up" Xavia says while reaching for the volume button and turns it up to 35. Her, her mom, and her sister just danced and sung in the car. Xzavia's mom, Rachel, was singing and driving. They were on there way back home from a girls night in Jonesboro. Her oldest sister, Skylar, just kept on jumping up and down in the seat and singing making faces. "Hahaha" they all laugh. At this time Xzavia was 10 years old and her sister was 13. It was a girls night because Xzavia, Skylar and there dad didn't get along because he didn't care and didn't want anything to do with them. Not just that but because they had no brothers and it was Skylars' thirteenth birthday.

Rachel reaches for the volume and turns it down to 15 "What was your favorite part of last night Xzavia?" Xzavia pauses and smiles " I think it was when we went to the fair and I accidentally spilled my popcorn and Dr. Pepper on Sky" "Haha" Skylar laughs. Her mom has a big smile on her face while she is looking at the road. We are the only vehicle on our side of the road. On the other side of the road, on the opposite lane, is a black Honda driving really slowly and is about far enough away that we can't really see it. Rachel looks at them and says "That was pretty funny and you have to admit, but what was your favorite part Sky?" The Honda speeds up. "I believe my favorite part was when we were riding the roller coaster and we went upside down and Xzavia passed out" Sky replies "It wasn't that funny!" Xzavia says with a huge smile. Xzavia and Sky start laughing nonstop loudly. Sky looks out the front window while there mom is looking at them and screams "MOM, LOOK OUT!" All Xzavia remembers in that moment was seeing a gun out the window of that black Honda. "BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!" Gunshots fired and Rachel lost control of the car and hit a tree. All you could hear was the car hit the tree and screams of the runaway cars tires spinning out of the crime scene as fast as they could.

Xzavia jumps out of bed let's 2 tears run down her cheeks and walks to her table to grabs her meds and her glass of water. She takes 2 of the pills and let's the water run down the inside of her throat. She walks into the kitchen and makes one piece of toast and a bowl of fruity pebbles. She checks to see if her grandmother was in her room. She wasn't, then Xzavia checks through the window to see if her grandmothers car is there. "Nope" she says to herself. All she sees is her blue jacked up truck with the huge tires. She walks to her room and checks her phone



She sighs and sets her bowl on her working desk, shoves the toast in her mouth and start eating. After she finishes she reaches to plug her speaker into the phone. She puts in her password and clicks on the music icon, scrolls down her music and has more than enough options. She clicks on the song Heavy by Linking Park and Kiira. She turns it up as loud as she can, knowing her grandmother won't be home till 5:00 am the next morning. She grabs a notebook and pen. She tries to find the next blank paper and takes the lid off the pen and puts it on the end of it. She writes down her thoughts.

She wrote down half a page 1 minute before the song ends. After about 2 minutes she realizes the next song is on. She grabs her speaker and phone throws it on the bed while the music is playing and closes the notebook and puts it back on the stack of notes, papers, and other notebooks she has finished or halfway finished and puts her pen in the cup, holding other pens and pencils, without putting the lid back on.