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Eleven

"So basically what you're telling me is that the lads don't know me right now because I never actually auditioned for The X Factor?" I question.
"That's correct." James replies.
I put my index finger and thumb over the bridge of my nose and continue speaking. "And that when the rest of these six months are up, if I choose to stay here, that I'll never become a musician and do what I love to do?"

"Indeed. You're also forgetting that if you do choose to go back that you and Selena will not be a couple. Choice is yours, my friend." I hear him hang up the phone.

I stand there holding the phone in my hand, shocker look on my face.
How am I supposed to choose between my wife and my passion for my career. I can't make this decision. Not right now anyways.
A voice in my head speaks to me "you'll have to soon."

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Selena's POV

"I don't know Mandy, I don't know what's wrong. All I know is that recently Harry has been acting very distant, and just not like himself." I explain to my best friend, who's listening with understanding ears.

"Well, have you tried talking to him? See what he's dealing with?" She asks me.

To be honest, no I haven't. There's a big part of me that doesn't wanna know the truth. "No Mandy, I haven't. I'm scared to. If I ask him what's up and he tells me that he's regretting our marriage or he's losing feelings, my heart couldn't handle that, and think about Grace. She'd be put right in the middle of this situation."

"Sel, I may not know Harry as well I know you but I do know that Harry loves you and he wouldn't do anything to separate his family. Trust me, I see the way he looks at you. His whole face lights up." She says and it pulls at my heart strings.

I know Harry loves me but something is going on with him. Something personal and I honestly don't think it's my place to ask.
Mandy, reading my mind, says "you're his wife. Talk to him and find out what's up. There should be no secrets between the two of you."

I couldn't agree more.

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Harry's POV

I'm sitting on the couch watching some movie about Trolls with Gracie when my phone starts ringing. It's Sel, she wants to face time.
"Hey babe." I say as I answer and see her pretty face smiling back at me.

"Hey baby, where's Gracie?" She asks.
I look down and she's passed out asleep.
"Well... We were watching a movie but I see I'm not cool enough for her to hang out with. She's sleeping."

"There's actually something I wanna talk to you about Harry, but thats a conversation that needs to take place face to face." She says.

Why didn't she just tell me when she got here? Now I'm gonna have all these crazy thoughts in my head about what she needs to talk about.

After our chat, I hang up the phone and wrap Gracie in my arms. Carrying her up the stairs, she whispers "luh you dada." My heart leaps in my chest.
When I get to her room, I gently lay her down and cover her up with a blanket.
I stop in her doorway and just stare at her. "I love you too baby." I say even though I know she's fast asleep.

Selena is walking in through the front door when I return to the living room. "Hey gorgeous" I say as I greet her with a kiss.
She returns the kiss and asks "Gracie in bed?" I nod my head.

My curiosity gets the better of me and I can't help but to ask "so, what did you wanna talk about?"
She sits on the couch and the purple dress she's wearing keeps riding up her thighs, distracting me.

She exhales and looking me in my eyes, she says "Harry, there's something going on with you that you're not telling me. I've been trying to refrain from asking but you're acting distant, and you're keeping secrets. A-are you losing feelings for me?"

I feel my breath hitch in my throat. She really thinks I'm falling out of love with her?! I pull her onto my lap and after tucking a hair behind her ear, I say "babe, first of all, I'm not losing any feelings for you. I love you and nothing is going to change that," I pause to look at her and she's listening attentively. I guess it's time to be honest. "I want to tell you what's going on but you're not going to believe me. I mean, I can barely wrap my head around it."

I start from the beginning and explain to her every detail. She's confused, as am I.

"Harry, that doesn't make any sense, how do you possibly expect me to believe that?" She questions.
I sigh. "I know it doesn't make sense, but it's the truth. In all it's entirety." I reassure her.

She gets up and starts pacing around the living room with her hands on her hips.
"Well obviously, you're going to choose to go back rather than staying here, aren't you?" She looks at me.
"What makes you think that? I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do, okay?" I explain, frustrated.

A few minutes later, she's walking downstairs with two bags in her hands.
"Erm, what're you doing?" I question worriedly.
She sighs before she says "Harry, you need time to figure this shit out and I can't wait around for you to decide what you want. Gracie and I are staying at my mom's for a bit."

I watch as she puts her bags in her car and comes back inside for Gracie. After she straps her into her car seat, she looks at my from the driver's seat, rolls down her window and says "I love you and whatever you decide to do, I just want you to be happy."

"Then why are you leaving?"
"Because, I can't watch my heart shatter during this process."

Then she drives away, leaving me broken, defeated, and more confused than ever.