Broken

Not such a walk in the park

*Rileys POV*

I put on my shoes and walked down stairs quietly trying not to wake up Alana. We walk out the house Autumn got her house key and locked the door "where the fuck are we going Autumn" she looks at me but keeps walking saying nothing i just follow her cause she is my best friend and i don't want her to get hurt. 'Are you just not going to talk to me" i say running to catch up to her "i don't know what to say Riley you promised" she said sniffling "i know i did but i just couldn't do it" i say taking her arm and spinning her around "you should have come to me" she said a tear rolling down her cheek " i know and I'm sorry" i say my eyes going blurry "sorry is not going to heal you Riley you need to learn that me and Alana are here for you forever no matter what and you can come to us for anything" she says balling " don't. don't do this to me" she looked up at me "don't do what tell you that people care for you that people are here for you cause Riley people are here for you and if you don't see that then you are just stupid" she kept walking i followed. "I'm sorry ok I'm sorry that I'm broken I'm sorry that my dad used to abuse me and that my mom hung herself and I'm sorry that i brought you into this" i yell. i turn away and run down the street.

I'm lost.

Lost.

LOst.

LOSt.

LOST.

OMG I'M LOST.

i have only been living by myself for a month i have not had this area memorized yet i think i may be having a panic attack.

I need Autumn.

NOW.

I fall to my knees and my breathing getting heavier.

"woh are you ok" i hear i voice i have no idea where it is coming from.

"love are you alright" i hear another voice my breathing getting even worse

"boys we need to get her some where" 

"like where" 

"lets take her back to our hotel" 

"alright. hey I'm going to pick you up and carry you ok" tears are pouring out of my eyes and i felt like i just got hit by a car 

"alright. 1. 2. 3." i felt the floor under me disappear 

"what about the fans" 

"ya harry what about that fans" well at least i know one name and i think he might be the one carrying me "we can go around back"

"ok lets go" 

"alright open the door" i was still sobbing and still felt like i was hit by a car 

"mate its locked" 

"GOD call Paul" 

"already on it" 

"or liam. ya call him too"

i hear the door open "boys who is this"

"i don't know but we found her panicing and crying i think she might be having a panic attack like what i get" 

"alright get her in here and upstairs and we can take care of her" my phone is in my sweater pocket and i think i just felt it vibrate but that could also be his chest

About five minutes later we were in what i believe is there room. i have know idea who these people are or who "the fans" are but I'm starting to get scare me.

he sets me down on what i think is the couch

"hey love whats your name" my vision is really blurry but i can kinda see his hair i think it is curly

"r...ri...riley" i mange to choke out

"well hi Riley my name is Harry. can i ask you something" he asks

i nod my head

"alright can you count to ten with me out loud and on your fingers"

i nod again

"ok"

"one"

"on...one" 

"come on you can do it. two"

"t..t..two"

"alright your doing it. three" 

"th.th.three"

"come on love. four"

"ffffour"

"five"

"fi.fi.five"

"six"

"ssix"

"seven" 

"seven"

"alright we are almost there. eight" my breathing is starting to slow and my eyes are getting clearer

"eight"

"ok. nine"

"nnnine"

"ok one more lets do this one with out stuttering ok"

i nod

"ten"

"ten" i blink and everything comes into view

"hey love you ok now" harry asks 

I look around and see five faces looking at me

i probably look like a monster 

"ok this is Louis"

he says pointing a guy with messy brown hair 

"and this is Zayn" 

he says pointing to a guy with swooped hair that has a blonde streak in it

"and this is Niall"

he says pointing to a guy who has blonde hair

"this is Liam but we like to call him daddy"

he said pointing to the person sitting next to me that i had not noticed before

"and this is our body guard Paul"

he said pointing to the bigger man in the corner

"ok" i mange to whisper

"So your name is Riley"

I nod

"Ok. If you want me and you can go in my room and you can put on something of mine and you can wash up ok" 

I nod not feeling like talking 

He got up from kneeling down and offers his hand to help me up. I take it and follow him.

We go into his room which is not like every hotel room it is huge like the biggest room I have ever seen. He disappears and then comes back with a huddie and sweat pants "ok so the bathroom is right there i will be right here and we can talk we you get out ok" 

I nod and go into the bathroom taking my dirt stained pants off and put on the sweats I take my phone out of my pocket and took off the huddie I had on before which is now stained with tears and make up I look at my fresh scars for about a minute then put on Harry's huddie.

I look at myself in the mirror and my face looked like I had not washed it in a year so I took a hand full of water and splashed it on my face  took the hand towel and dried my face

I walk out of the bathroom to find Harry right where he said he would be "hey" I say startling him"

"Hey you ok"

Why do I always get asked that "you ok" no I'm not my mom killed herself and my dad used to abuse me. But like always I say "I'm fine" 

"No your not" Harry says startling me 

"No really I'm fine" I say lieing again

"I tell people that everyday and its a lie so i know a lie when I see one"

Ok who is this boy.....