Faithfully

Chapter Eleven; Not Yet

-----------------Faith's POV-----------------

"She is the cutest!" I giggled as the baby grabbed my nose

"She likes you." Stacey smiled 

"And I like her." I look up at Brendon only to see him smiling at me "What?"

"Nothing." He continues to smile, gently shaking his head 

"Okay..?" I furrow my brow and hand Joy back to Mark

I yawned, "What time is it?"

"Nine." Brendon checks his phone "Wanna go to bed?"

I shrug "I guess, but I don't wanna be rude."

"Oh, don't worry about it. We'll be here tomorrow." Stacey winked

"Okay.." I smiled, "Well it was nice to meet both of you."

"You, too, Faith." Mark smiled 

"Goodnight, Joy." I walked over to the baby and kissed her on the head

"Sweet dreams, darling." Stacey smiled at me

"I'll show you to my room," Brendon began up the stairs "I'll be right back."

I followed Brendon up the stairs to a room at the very back of the hallway 

"I'll close my eyes while you tidy up." I smile

"What?" He looks around his room "Nah, it's clean."

"Good." I wink 

"Wait what did you think I would have to clean up?"

I shrugged, "Clothes.. You know, guy stuff."

"Ew no." He laughed as I sat on the bed

"I can sleep in this." I smiled 

"You sure?"

I nodded, "yeah. Thanks."

"You're welcome." He smiled and kissed me "I'll be up in an hour or so."

"Okay." I smiled and he walked out, shutting the door

I took off my shoes, scarf and fedora and laid down, shuffling around the bed. I got up and opened the curtains, then sat in the arm chair by the window. The view was so beautiful, the stars so bright. There wasn't a single cloud in the sky.

I sat there for about an hour when Brendon walked in, "Hey, I thought you were tired."

I shrugged and turned to him "The view is great."

"You alright, Fay?" He kneeled next to me 

"Yeah. Just finally tired."

"Okay.." He stood up, offering his hand to give me assistance in standing up

I grabbed his hand, standing up. I giggled as he pulled me close, slowly swaying us from side to side. 

"I could stay lost in this moment forever.." Brendon sang to me in a low soft voice

"Hmm, Aerosmith, eh?" I giggled

"Of course." He pulled away, looking into my eyes

I smiled and laid my head back on his shoulder. I was enjoying this very moment. In this moment, I didn't feel alone. I felt loved.. I felt wanted.

"Don't wanna close my eyes" I began to sing

"I don't wanna fall asleep, cause I'd miss you baby" Brendon followed 

"And I don't wanna miss a thing." We sang together 

"Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do."

"I'd still miss you, baby." I squinted up my nose, putting my forehead to his

"And I don't wanna miss a thing." He growled at the beginning, continuing in a soft voice

"You did not just growl." I raised an eyebrow

"Maybe I did," he said in an Italian accent, "And maybe I didn't."

"Well if you did, then you started something that I would just have to finish."

"Oh?" He smiled, "And what if I didn't?"

"Then I'd start something."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah." I smiled, wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him down to my level.

"Well hello." He smirked

"Hi there." I giggled the softly kissed him

He placed his hands on my hips, pulling me closer. The kiss intensified and I pulled him onto the bed, entangling my hands in his thick black hair.

I shook my head, "Not yet."

"I understand." He sat next to me

I sat up and smiled at him then laid my head on his shoulder

He lifted up my sleeve, then ran his finger over the cuts on my wrist 

He kissed my wrist, "Please Fay, for me."

I nodded, "I know."

"I don't know what to say, so I won't say anything. I'd rather sit here in silence than say the wrong thing and hurt you."

"Brendon, there's nothing I expect you to say. This was all my doings, I didn't think about how it would hurt the ones around me. I threw a stone in the pond, expecting still water." 

"The ripple is quite big."

"I'm waiting for the dick joke." I looked up at him, smiling

"But not as big as my....." He smiled back at me "heart"

"Damn." I giggled "You're so cheesy."

He nodded and yawned, 'I'm also very tired."

"Then we shall sleep."

"Yes, yes we shall."

I laid down as he turned off the lights

"Ouch" I heard a thud then Brendon say 

I giggled, "You alright?"

"Perfect." I heard his voice right behind me

I screamed, not expecting him to be right next to me 

"Sorry." He laughed

"Bloody American." I mumbled to myself in a British accent

"I heard that." He laughed, laying next to me

"I mean love you, honey."

"Mmm-hmm. Sure. Okay love you, too." 

I cuddled up next to him, laying my head on his chest 

"Goodnight, Fay."

"Goodnight, Brendon." I drifted off to sleep