Late night thoughts

Suicide

Lately, I've been trying to figure out why my dad thought it would be a good idea to take his own life. This past month I've been thinking of reasons why, but all of them are connected to sadness and depression. My dad was hurting so much, the only way he could turn was to shoot himself. I guess that's what people do right. People say suicide is the "cowards way out", I mean I guess I could see why that makes sense, but if those people that say that went through what people who commit suicide went through, they to would become a "coward." Everyone does something for a reason, sometimes it might not be the right choice but the outcome lands on all the loved ones. When my dad died, the blowback landed on me, my mom, my brother, and the rest of his friends and family. Yea he isn't hurting now, but we are. We have to deal with sadness and depression, suicide is like a chain reaction, a bomb mine going off one at a time until everyone is effected. Eventually everyone will be effected, everyone will react in their own ways. Let's just hope no one else takes the "cowards way out." Because slowly but surely, everyone will be effected at one point in their life, and suicide isn't always the answer.