I Hate That I Love You || Nash Grier

Nine

Nash's Pov.

I don't get why I was getting so upset at this, yeah I should be happy that Amber didn't tell Crystal the truth about me but the lie she told to cover up my secret was the one that made me upset.

It seemed like everywhere I went, I was also known as the bad guy. I never have been seen as the good one. People always think they need to stay away from me or talk bad about me so others stay away as well. 

i walked up to a bench at the park just to gather all the thoughts that were going on in my mind. 

I wish I could go back.

That all I could think about. Ever since that one thing, everything has been falling apart and it seems when I try to make things better, I just make them worst instead. All I do is make one stupid one after the other and it never stops. 

I don't know why I care so much about Crystal, I guess it was because I thought she was different. I still do even after what I was told about her from Amber.

I froze, I told Crystal not to believe Amber after that lie she told her. So, why am I believing her at the moment,...

God, I am so stupid.

I quickly got off the bench and ran to the party. I need to find Amber and Crystal, I need to the truth and I need to fix things because this time I was not going to let a problem ruin everything for me like it already has. 

I got to the party and I started walking around looking for at least Amber or Crystal but all I saw was passed out people, people dancing and throwing up.. gross.

I found Cameron sitting on the couch talking to a random guy, maybe he will tell where Crystal is, probably not but its worth a try. 

"Cameron, where's Crystal" He looked at me surprised since I never really talk to him calmly since the night. 

"Why would I tell you?"

"Just fucking tell me, seriously I don't have time for this"

"She doesn't even want to see you, no one does. okay so just stop." Then he want back to talking back to his friend. 

I wanted to punch him so hard then and now, I was flaming in heat; I could feel it. Instead I just went up to him and grabbed his shirt and held him by the wall.

"Cameron, just tell me. seriously I am not in the mood for this shit"

"Fine, dammit she left with her three friends, just let me go"

"Where did they go?"

"I don't know, home?""

I dropped him and ran out of the party, I needed to make a plan about how to make this right because there was no way punching someone will get me out of this lie. 

What was wrong with me, I feel like I have been becoming weak with all these stupid ass drama, like since when do I get in drama? Like girl drama? It's all stupid.

I just needed to clear my mind because what I was doing is stupid, like Crystal is too goodie two shoes. 

I started to walk to the park and grabbed a cigarette out of my pocket and started to smoke as I made my way to the park. 

I was going to sit on the bench there was there but I saw a familiar person sitting there already...

"Crystal?"

"Nash? What are you doing here?"

"I could ask you the same" I chuckled while blowing another smoke. 

Why was she always in the park when I came to it?

"Wait, you smoke?" 

"Well yeah"

"Its bad for you" I started to chuckle.

"You are really going to tell me that right now? You know its good to relieve stress."

She looked like she was about to say something but decided not to and instead turned her head and gaze away from me. 

"Well I should go."

I quickly grabbed her wrist so she couldn't get away from me so quickly.

"Wait, please don't believe Amber's lie. I never knew Amber until I came to this school, she's lying you"

She looked at me as if I was stupid or something.

"Now why on earth would she ever lie to me"

"You will be surprised to find out who you can and cannot trust in this world" I let go of her arm and walked away. 

All I could do is wish she would believe me, I knew one way where I could get her to believe in me for sure but I couldn't do it. I didn't want her knowing my past and everything that happen. Thats why I came to this town so I could find myself because ever since that one night, everything became trouble and seemed like I couldn't leave it. 

I walked towards my home, where all of a sudden a car pulled up beside me.

"Get in" They said from calling me from their car. I couldn't see who it was because their windows were tinted black. I just decided to keep walking because I didn't feel like responding.

"Dammit Nash, we need your help." I froze in my place when I heard them say my name, I walked up to the car to see that they pulled their window down now.

"Wait what are you doing here?"

"We need you to come back in help"

"You know I left because I was done with all the shit" I groaned.

"Nash you know for a fact that once you join something like this that the only way out is by death"

"Well, I feel like I'm pretty out now"

"Soon you will feel even more out once you'll be dead..."

"What are you talking about?"

"They find out that you left and they are pissed off and they're after you. They want you dead"

This was not want I wanted when I moved here....

"Fine, I'll come"