Bruno Mars - "When I Was Your Man"
"Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you,
all it does is just tear me down
'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name."
EPILOGUE.
When I Was Your Man.
3 Years passed since she was gone.
Arissa and I didn't work very well. I was an architect, she was a designer. We were very busy, that we didn't have time for each other. We both fell out of love.
My sister, however, quit herself from her old deeds and started a new life. She got herself a job as a video blogger in Youtube. I'm proud of her, everywhere we went people recognize her immediately.
My parents changed, too, they did their best to spend time with me and my sister whenever they can. I even found a planner of mother where she marked multiple days of day-off's for a family bonding.
Good fortune for Celine, we fixed our relationship the last time we talked, and decided to remain friends. She and her fiance opened up a pastry business for their love of baking.
Arissa and I both went our separate ways, and that was a year ago.
Maybe one of the reasons we didn't work out is that I kept looking for her.
That scene kept replaying on my head, over and over that it haunts me in my sleep.
It was too late that I realized how she mattered to me.
And now she's out of my grasp.
I spent years researching for her, hired professional detectives to find any trace of her. Yet out of all the 7 billion people of the world, she wasn't any one of them.
She's not even in the deceased.
She just ceased to exist.
The only proof that I have of her is our photograph and her pocket watch. Who knows where the owner have gone too.
I sit back, letting my muscles relax as they've been tensed for years now. I'm back in the last place I was with her, the cafe.
All the places I wanted to be, I went, but I'm here, brought back to Tallinn, Estonia.
Where I thought I found the one, where in reality I actually lost the one.
Am I really pathetic just as she said?
She said many words, words of wisdom, but I kept two phrases close to me.
I was unable to reply one back.
In front of the window was the tree where I confessed to Arissa. Across it is the fountain where Estelle saw all of it happen.
Why, of all of my unanswered questions, didn't she do anything?
Why, did I notice things late?
I was never a morning person. I wake up late. Do things late. But this, is where I'm unable to correct everything.
She was gone and I let it happen.
I was gone and she made it happen.
That day at the fireplace is where I started it all.
And yet, amidst everything, nothing was set it motion. We could've been. We could've happened.
I didn't do anything. Or was I destined to not do something?
No.
Even if the universe itself is against me, I will let us happen. I will find Estelle. Wherever she is. I know she's still here, around me, but unable to be seen.Circumstances were inevitable and time cannot be turned back. But for her to exist only around me ... I'm willing to risk the same just for her.
None of this would've happened if I was busy with my thoughts.
It wouldn't be if I just thought more about her.
That way, I would've noticed. That way, I would've replied her those three words she mouthed to me.
Why was it, I left the words unsaid?
"My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh...
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like oooooh...
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man
Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know."
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