I try to push my pain deep down,
but it just keeps coming back around.
I try to explain, but I get told its nothing. I speak up,
but when I do, It comes out wrong.
due to constantly having to fight my own battles too.
Me needing to own up to all my mistakes,
is getting harder and harder every step I try to take.
Getting closer and closer but it seems I'm just stepping back,
I don't know why I ever bothered to look back.
Why was I brought up like this?
I shoulden't be bothered but I'm scared to go.
Why do I feel so gutless, why do I seem bothered,
"just forget it" I was told.
Saying the wrong thing hurts, but hearing it is worse,
sorry I have no experience trying to express my pain.
It goes deeper and deeper as I try to erase,
but all I'm able to say is that I'm going through a phase.
I guess nothing will be enough to show you
what I'm really going through,Instead you may aswell
make up a joke as if it were rare to you!
I try to plea for help as a yelp hoping someone can help
and heal but I guess none of that is real...
