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.....i....don't know.......i.....get so lonely at times..........things don't really matter to me anymore.......why should.....i......hope for.....look forward to.....anticipate
a ......change............when my world has been full of gloom.......an endless path of
misery....disappointments........ups and downs........separations.........betrayals.......he said ........i.....would never amount to much.......my kind.......were
destined to failure....to servitude.......always going under.....never to get over........loss on the tracks of an underground.......railroad..........desperately seeking
a freedom denied.....within an organization based on freedom......whom the Son sets free is free indeed.......he said ....i....would never amount to
much....i.....might as well give up....accept my destiny......and take my rightful position at the back of the bus......yet ...i....rose to the top.....only to fall again......
only to wake up......and find myself standing in the masters field............my life over shadowed by the plantation of his bondage.........doomed to wander
through the fields of..........depression.....over burdened with hopelessness................feeling empty...............defeated in a war already won for
me..............unable to claim the victory.............he said.......i......would never amount to much................my kind.............were ordained to...........fulfill the
dreams of others............yoked together with illiteracy.........non-existent in a world of joy and gratitude...............he said......i ....may as well just......do
it.........hide within the sea of suicide......and reap the pleasures of ......death.........while drowning deep in the regions of a sick mind.......brilliance on the
brink of madness....as my world spins out of control.....he said ....i...would not amount to much.........i........might as well call it quits.......there exist no
reason to go on.................but ......when all seemed lost.....i.......heard a voice calling my name......increasing my faith..... in desperation......i.... managed to
look up.....a healing...a joy....a peace...... began to manifest...........and my world stopped spinning........when ....my eyes.....found you
