Post-War • Drarry ✔️

Chapter 4

Just came back from my holiday! I looked at wattpad and saw I have 138 reads! That's alot for me! Anyways I kinda hate being back home, when I was on holiday it was nice to relax and I didn't have to worry about all the drama in my life and social expectations, but now I'm back and feel all depressed again soooo

Triggering maybe? The italicized parts like this are flashbacks.

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“Hello Ginny, sorry I’m late” I said to my wife as I rushed through the door, I was 15 minutes late to our dinner and I’m sure she won’t be too impressed by it. She came into my view with her arms crossed, her eyebrow was raised and a small grown was on her face, I knew she wasn’t happy about my lateness.

“15 minutes Harry, I’ve been waiting for that long! I thought you weren’t going to show up!” she told me and I hung my head down low, I felt a kiss on my cheek. "Doesn't matter though, at least you're here now! Come on let's eat my roast before it gets cold"

We sat down at our table and I dug into her food, Ginny was an amazing cook, she had her own business along with her being a quidditch player. I've always been proud of her, she had talent and that was one of the many reasons I fell in love with her.

"So how's work?" she asked and I thought of the many things that happened this week, my mind drifted off to last night when I was teaching Draco a patronus.

"Alright I guess" I tell her. "How's your jobs? I've heard that your bakery has gotten alot of good reviews"

"The muggles love it, little do they know that I'm barely even making it, its my wand that does the trick! Quidditch isn't going very well though, I feel like I've gotten worse" she told me

"A little practice and you'll be better than you were before, I know you Gin, you're the best player I've seen in my life!" I told her and she smiled.

"Enough about me! I've heard that Draco Malfoy is teaching at Hogwarts, are things still awkward?" she asked and I thought about last night, him crying on the ground, him screaming and sobbing hysterically.

"Uh.. It's alright. It's not awkward but we don't really talk" I lied. "I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be back"

"People make it out to be difficult but it really isn't! Just think of a happy memory, point your wand and say 'Expecto Patronum' it's that simple" I tell Draco, he grabbed out his wand and sighed, he pointed his wand towards the door and yelled out the spell, nothing. "You've got to think of a happier thought than that Draco!"

I went into the bathroom and washed my face, I couldn't get the images out of my head from last night. Draco screaming. Draco crying. Draco yelling out things that I didn't know he felt.

"it's not working Harry, I'll never be able to produce a patronus" Draco told me and sat down on the ground.

"Maybe you just need to think of a happier thought? That was the problem I had" I admitted to him and he looked at me, his eyes bigger and sadder than I thought they were, I'd always thought he was happy, proud even, but in this moment I knew that he wasn't.

"Don't you understand Harry? I don't have any happy memories! My whole life has been me being forced to do things! Being brung up my monsters who never cared about me! Nobody ever cared about me! What bloody happy memories do I have Harry! Can you think of any? I bet you can't!"

I looked in the mirror and looked at my scar, I had it easy, I had role models, friends and support from everyone around me, but what did draco have?

"There's gotta be something Draco- What about getting outstanding on your potions owl! You were one of the only ones! Or riding a broom for the first time or-" I begin but then I hear draco sob.

"I hate this Harry, I hate this so much! Why couldn't I be like you, you're perfect and I'm just a mistake" he cried and I put my hand on his shoulder.

"I'm far from perfect-"

"No! You aren't far from perfect! You're as perfect as someone could ever get! I'm the complete opposite! I'm that much of a bloody fuck up that I had to be forced to do things because I couldn't be like my family! I had to have the crucio curse on me most of my childhood because I wasn't good enough! I'm not good enough!" he was yelling now. I held him in my arms as he screamed and cried.

"You aren't a fuck up, your upbringing was. You had no choice but you do now, your father isn't around! You can do whatever you want, he can't hurt you, nobody can" I tell him while holding him tightly.

"Are you alright Harry? You've been in there for a while" I heard ginny call out.

"I'm fine! I'll be out in a minute" I called back to her. I thought of what draco said, how I was perfect, if I was so perfect I wouldn't be flirting with him whilst married to Ginny. "Ok I'm out the bathroom now, sorry for taking so long"

"No worries! Anyways back to our conversation, Hermione babysitted albus yesterday and apparently he's doing really well talking and walking, I think that we should hire a babysitter though, we can't keep on making our friends do it" she told me.

"Yeah, I'll find one" I said to her but I just felt guilty, I just felt horrible. All these new emotions that I've never processed before we're swirling around in my head. What was I going to do?

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Dear nobody,

I'm writing on this blank parchment to spill out my emotions then I'm throwing it in acid or down the drain or wherever. I'm married, happy and in love but things have changed, suddenly I've found myself flirting with Draco, I've found myself looking at him in ways I shouldn't be, I don't have a crush on him God no, but I'm getting there.

I feel so guilty, Ginny loves me and I love her but I'm also feeling some things around draco, when I held him last night I wanted to hold him forever, I wanted him to know the true meaning of happiness.

I'm torn between two, I don't know what to think anymore and I have no clue what to do about it.

From a confused harry.

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Was this chapter confusing? I don't know, I'm tired and I've got school tomorrow! The song at the top is my fav song rn, I doubt you all care but anyways. Hope you enjoyed xx