Glow No More

My Date

The date is coming,
The date that i planned.
This date'll be the biggest
In all of my land.

But what if something-
As small as a smile,
Can delay this date
By more than a mile.

My fingers burned
From the time i spent,
All the preparation: gone.
I've had to cancel the event.

A laugh, a conversation,
It wasn't much.
Anything can stop it,
Even the smallest touch.

'So easy to stop,'
Well, that's what i say.
I'll just tell myself that,
It's not like it matters anyway.

As long as the date's gone,
It doesn't matter what stopped it.
And i'm proud i've have managed
To climb out the depression pit.

They say, "we're here to help,
Please, let us help you."
But i just can't bring myself
To say i want you to.

I believe that it takes,
One person to save another:
Yourself. If you are not
Willing, then why bother?

And that one person,
Was the one who saved me.
Who made me delay my date.
I owe my life to thee.

I didn't want to pay for someone,
I didn't want to have therapy.
All i needed was someone to trust,
Someone who'd be my friend for free.
And someone who'd delay my date,
Just to save me.

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I'm not going to give one of those speeches here about how if you are feeling suicidal you should ring some number which would help, because that would honestly be lying. I have personally talked to a suicide hotline and found that they didn't help me in any way. Instead, if you're feeling suicidal please talk to someone you love, you don't have to even tell them how you're feeling, just spend time with them, appreciate them and think about how they would feel if you left them. And if you honestly think there is no one you love or who loves you, speak to me because we can change that. Stay strong everyone <3

P.S: if there is anything you would like me to explain please say as lots of it is in metaphors. Also, i don't mean to be offending anyone here, i'm sure lots of people found suicide hotlines helpful- i'm just talking about my personal experiences.