Fall Away//phan

Chapter 6

It was Friday at school, and Dan could do anything but concentrate.

The maths room was chilly, and Dan wasn't sure whether it was the autumn weather seeping in from the outside, or his frozen mental state affecting him physically. It all blurred together, anyway. He didn't see much point in living, why should he try? He was just going to die anyway, and anything and everything he had ever lived for would rot away along with his corpse just like everyone else on this planet.

He bounces his left leg up and down underneath the desk, his dark eyes darting around the classroom dancing over to where Phil sat.

He remembered how Phil had come round to his house last week because he was worried about him. No one had ever done that for him before, no one cared like he did. Phil looks up from his work and catches Dan's eyes, the corners of his mouth quirking up into a friendly smile.

I can feel the pull begin

He shakes his head, sharply looking away from Phil and instead glanced out of the window, doing anything to try to distract him from the feeling of addiction that was gnawing away at him like a predator on it's prey.

He wanted to try, for Phil. He started tapping his fingers loudly on the desk causing Pj to sigh loudly in annoyance from behind him. "Can you not?! I know you have issues and all, but does that really mean you have to tap like that?!"

Dan stops tapping, turning around to face Pj sharply "Yes it fucking does, so unless you have a better alternative for distraction, I suggest you shut the fuck up." He turns back around, and is met by the annoyed face of his Maths teacher.

"Daniel, how many times do I have to tell you, this is a room to learn in not to talk to your friends" Mrs. Jones shakes her head while sighing loudly from her desk.

Pj laughs, his laughter full of cruelty and contempt. "Friends? With him? Miss, Dan has no friends!" the rest of the class laughs along with Pj, except for Phil, who looks around the room hastily, wanting to stop everyone but not having the courage to do so.

Mrs. Jones stands up from her chair, waving her hands in a controlling manner. "Class! Be quiet now or it's after schools's for all of you!" the laughter fades away quickly, but Dan had had enough.

He stands up, hoisting his bag up from the floor, slinging it over his shoulder as he walks out of the room, once again slamming the door after hisself.

The class sat in stunned silence, the air seeming to buzz with the aftermath of what had just happened.

Phil looks from the door to Pj, shaking his head in annoyance.
He was annoyed at Pj for upsetting Dan in front of the whole class, but he was annoyed at himself too. Especially after the other night where he had promised to help Dan, he had already failed at that.

He should have stopped Pj, he should have stopped everyone in from laughing.

"Everyone, get back to your work now! No, this is not an excuse for you all to start talking again, be quiet!" Mrs. Jones snapped at the class impatiently, annoyed that Dan had walked out of her class, again. Didn't he want to pass his exams?

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"You're back again then?" The Man's amused voice rang through the park.

Dan folds his arms and rolls his eyes in annoyance. "No I'm a fucking hallucination, what do you think?!"

The Man smirks and laughs a little at Dan. "I think that you're here because you're addicted and there's nothing you can do about it. Pathetic really, isn't it?"

The wind ripples through the grass, carrying golden leaves through the park and sweeping Dan's hair in front of his eyes. "Almost as pathetic as you getting a teenager addicted to drugs and smoking."

The Man laughs again. "I didn't get you addicted, you got yourself addicted. You didn't have to take anything but you did! It's your fault, everything is YOUR fault!"

The Man's suddenly angry voice rung through Dan's ears. "As if I didn't already know that. You don't have to remind me. I know."

"Good. I'm glad you do" he smiles sardonically at Dan who rolls his eyes.

"Just give me some cigarettes or something, that's what I came for so you better have some."

The Man laughs harshly at Dan and takes out a cigarette that looked tampered with to say the least and offers it to Dan. "If you're so desperate then take this."

He looks down at the cigarette dubiously then raises an eyebrow up at The Man. "Do I look like an idiot? That's been tampered with, there's no fucking way I'm gonna smoke that. I've learned my lesson..."

The Man walks closer towards Dan, a harsh expression riddling his face. "Take it. Now."

  feel my conscience wearing thin

Dan sighs in defeat, evidently giving in. He snatches the cigarette out of The Man's hand and lights it, before he begins to smoke it. After only a few seconds, Dan staggers back, his head reeling.

He collapses onto the floor, dropping the cigarette and his lighter onto the grass as The Man's laughing figure loomed overhead, shaking and waving about Dan's vision from the effects of the cigarette.

This was just like last time, Dan thought. He was so stupid to give in to his addiction like that. He had let Phil down, again.

Multiple figures appeared over Dan, their bodies overlapping and swaying around each other. He wasn't sure if there were more people, or if the cigarette's effects were worsening.

Dan supposed it was the former, as the kicks all came at different times from separate parts of his body.

The echoes of laughter travelled through the air around Dan as the pain continued to come, kick after kick after kick.

and my skin, it will start, to break up and fall apart

The laughter continued to grow, along with the voices of the men "He deserves it...Disgusting...He's really gone and fucked up this time...If only he knew!"

He let it all flood over him along with everything else he was feeling as he lay there beginning to loose consciousness.

He wanted to get up and walk away, but he couldn't. He just couldn't get up. He was glad that Phil wasn't here to see him like this.

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that was a really short chapter and it's pretty similar to one before this which i realised oops but there's gonna be more happening soon so woop you're in for a ride also i didn't edit it so sorry for any mistakes

thank you for reading!