What Is Crazy?✔

Chapter 1- Diarrhea

Chapter 1 - Diarrhea
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'Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit!'

I silently cursed under my breath as I struggled to undo the buttons and zipper of these tight pants.

'Why the fuck did I go through with this?' I cursed myself as I finally got the pants to slide down my legs , and sat down on the cold, round, white circular contraption that awaited me.

...The toilet.

PUBLIC! toilet

I sat miserably trying to render myself back in the past in hopes of avoiding this horrendous event.

..But to no avail.

I sighed ,annoyed at this ridiculous turn of events .

Isn't it just wonderful how no matter how hard i try to avoid him he always pops out out of nowhere? Making me feel butterflies and shit.

There was just something about him..

Just something...I whispered as I stared at the stall door

'A obeah!'

'Issa curse'

'Is dat!'

I chuckled at my stupid thoughts humorlessly

"Damn, maybe I am weird" I muttered sadly remembering his words

Thinking I was finished with the bathroom I reached for the toilet paper

'Splat!'

I slowly retrieved my hand and let it fall on my lap

'Or nah' I thought looking lazily to the side

If only I could have avoided coming here , then I wouldn't have seen him.
Or have the shittings!!

I leaned back on the toilet seat knowing I'd be there for a while.

Life boii....

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Earlier that day  (around 1 pm)
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'These streets don't love you like I do,

Yuh need fi know dat,

You wanna keep yuh woman loving you,

Well yuh need fi show that,

The love we have it take so much effort fi build ,'

I sang, with a little too much feeling and emotion to Tanya Stephens' song 'These Streets' as I was in my room pretending to have a man and singing the song to
him.

'Damn maybe I am weird ..' I thought, turning off my music suddenly feeling empty again.

Who knew ,ONE boy..a TOTAL STRANGER , could make you question your sanity and make you feel insecure.

Personally , I never saw it coming .
I mean fuck people and their opinions right?
That WAS my mentality until I randomly decided to play volleyball.
There was this guy he was aight looking I guess, lightskin.

And tbh that's all I saw until weeks of seeing him ..then I began to notice him, like REALLY notice him .

I noticed his pink full lips , Brown eyes , and the way his skin colour just popped in every colour, and he was the shyest thing .