Unspoken Findings

Chapter 23: Never was a happy ending

Was I stalking a girl that is dating my best friend slash crush ? Yes.

Am I proud of it ?Indeed.

Why ?Because I wouldn't have found out what I was witnessing.

Am I happy with this information ?... Actual I don't know.

Weather to be happy that I was right about this girl being awful
or to feel heartbroken for Shawn,whose heart has been cheated on.

It wasn't Shawn with Violet if you haven't caught up by now.

It was no one that I actually knew of.

Matthew looked at me surprised here and couldn't believe his eyes but I don't blame him I guess I always thought the worse of her but I didn't think it would be this bad.

I pitted Shawn right now, at this exact moment. That little cheating-

Matthew looked at my now paled face he questioned filled with a hint of concern ,"Are you alright?"

Suddenly the mood of the night was now gloomed sad,dark, pitiful,"yeah, I guess sometimes you can't always have what you want but hope for the best of them but sometimes we have to get disappointed at some point."

There was never such things as happy endings and I have experienced that on this night.

He stared at me for a while still trying to understand my words but I cut off his thoughts, " let's just get out of here." The view out my window wasn't one I would find comfort,I tried finding a distraction.

Just as you would think you're actually making happy moments some ideas somehow disappointedly get  shut down.

The ride was silent all I did was stare out the window trying my best to be blanking mind but my head didn't allow it .I didn't  want to talk right now. There was nothing to talk about.

I only thought about myself that moment.I felt bad about Matthew, I just shut him away as if our moments of ‏ this Insomia Night was nothing. In the morning it was. When that stupid moment fades away.

I think Matthew was trying to lighten the mood as he played slow music on full blast ,even our favourite jams. When I looked at him, I found him staring with an urge and heaved a sigh.

Though,my expression stayed the same. All I could think about was Shawn's face if and when he ever finds out,though,that was for another day as I fell fast asleep through our drive back to the hotel.