I don't remember when I wrote this but honestly I'm just saying fuck it know because I know my feelings are valid and I know I'm not giving up for no reason. I know I love her and I know my mind is fucked up but here's the thing..
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"I fucking love you, get that through your head" "I'm not going any where"
Now im writing this and you'll probably never see it but I just have to apologize because I think I fell in love with you and im sorry that I think you don't love me and im sorry that I think you're going to leave me and im sorry. Im so fucking sorry you have to deal with me. I'm a mess and i just want to feel like I'm wanted around and like someone needs me and fuck you just make me feel like that and im so fucking stupid. You probably don't even love me the way i love you cause fuck me I'm so dumb. Im sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. Cause i know you love that other girl and i dont mean as much as her and i hate loving someone while their in love but fuck i dunno how im gonna tell myself to fuck off cause i don't want to fucking leave and i dont want you to leave and i dont fucking know what to do. How did i fucking fall for you. You wanted me not to. But it fucking happened anyways. Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry.
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Letters to myself
Randomletters I've written to myself while I'm overwhelmed or thinking about things that I can't tell someone else.
