ReaderxHibari:Forgotten.

12: wrong feelings

flashback~

the ceremony...

the ceremony is done every 3 years to test our skills and to rank ourselves between the 5 of us. This ceremony was called the " uccidere e coraggio". It means kill and courage in italian.

You fight your opponent until opponent cannot stand up anymore or until your opponent gives up. Jackie always gives up at the start of the fight that's why he's no.5 . But his skills obviously isn't just no.5

*drip drip*

His blood dripped as my katana was withdrawn from his side of the body.

alfon: I...give up...

He wasn't even trying it was so obvious.

but when it comes to the top 3...the rank doesn't so much matter. It counts to your votes. The more people vote for you , the higher you rank. As usual... I am the last because people fear me. It doesn't matter who wins in the matches, they just want to see blood spill.

Kashin-nii is always the most popular hence naturally he is the first. Me being the hated will get placed last and so the left rank for alfon is rank 2.

end of flashback~

alfon: the you than wouldn't even hesitate to put a katana in me. And we were in love than, what makes him so different?

I couldn't answer his question...I stayed silence. I try to find an answer but none manage to pop out.

alfon: what did he do to change you? You were so obedient to boss than.

me: I can get out of that life now. Of course I will not kill.

Thats right...I can't escape from killing people as crosse in that house. As long as I am in that house I have to kill. If I don't I will be kicked out. I don't want to be homeless.

Boss...I treated him like a real father. I called him boss but in my heart he is my dad. But to him...nobody knows if its the same.

But now I have my own home. I don't want to return to that anymore.

alfon:than don't kill him. At least defeat him. I will do the final kill.

me:I can't...

alfon: he is a threat to the black society. You know boss wants him dead.

me:boss...boss don't even want me!!!

alfon: that's not true!!! You have to defeat him. He is a threat.

me: I will not kill kyouya. Force me and I will cut you.

alfon: why him?!!!

me:because...because I never really loved you!!!

ale...what just came out of my mouth... did I really mean that?

alfon: than what am I to you? Exactly?

me: ....brother...I guess... yea.... you have always cared for me and been so gentle to me. I never knew how to reject your kindness and gentle to me.

alfon: crosse...

me: when you said you loved me...I just assumed that feeling I had for you was it. I was wrong...I have always treated you as my brother... gomen...

author's note: gomenasai...for such a short chp.