behind the scenes {kim taehyung}

08

Mina P.o.V

I was resting on my bed and didn't get the things that had happened out of my head.
These thoughts were crossing my mind as if they had decided to disturb my whole life.
What did I look like today? Did Taehyung notice the beautiful dress I had been wearing for him? Or did he just believe I'm awkward, after he maybe noticed, that I had been following him everywhere?

Being without him felt so desperate, so lonely and I was questioning myself, how I survived my whole life without even seeing him in real life.
Did I really expect my obsession with him would get less, when my dreams come true, and I could see him?
Well, then I had been wrong.

I mean what did I believe? That he isn't like he is in the movies and interviews? Did I believe I would get enough from him, and just forget him after a while?

You did well, Mina. You are screwed.

He was even more beautiful and graceful in real life, his actions and words are perfectly completing his breathtaking appearance.
He was not just wonderful, he was stunning.

And in comparision to the people around him, those popular actors and perfect girlies, I'm just me.
I'm a nothing.

Silently there was a knock heard on my door, and I raised my teary voice to call the molester in.

"Mina. I need the tea."

Flabbergasted I watched my best friend rushing into my room, the tears ran down her face like water falls down a waterfall.

We always drank tea together, when one of us had a mental breakdown, which often ended in a funny lady night with coctails and chocolate.

I wasn't sure if I was in the mood for this right now, but the sad glance Jihee gave me, made me get up with a start and search for the tea on my nightstand.

After a short while, we were already sitting together on my bed, hugging each other and beside us we had two cups of chai tea.

"Ok, what happened Jiji?"

"My boyfriend came back from his long vacation."

"Oh my god, that's wonderful, I'm so happy for you!"

"Mini,..."

"Not good?"

"Not good."

"Oh no he didn't."

"He did. He doesn't want me anymore he didn't even greet me."

"Asshole."

"Fucker."

"Coward."

"He just left me without a reason."

"You have to forget him, I knew he is not good for you. You deserve better!"

"Did you ever forget Taehyung, even if you know, that he never will be yours?!"

That was enough. Blinded by anger I pointed towards the door and screamed at her.

"I swear if you don't leave this room right now, I'll..."

She immediately jumped up and bursted out of the house.

It felt lonely after some moments of regretting what I had done, and I decided to follow her and apologize.
I had no right to scream at my best friend like that, she had always been there for me, if she only understood my love for Taehyung.

I was looking for her in the whole house, ran through the corridors, opened every cupboard.

She was gone.

When I got back to my room I noticed the two cups of tea still steeming next to my bed and my eyes got teary.

Suddenly my phone started vibrating on my nightstand and I could see a new message had arrived.
From: Unknown.

Confused I started typing in the password for my phone and unlocked it.

"Hi Mina. I just stole Bogummys phone, and I noticed he had your number, so I thought I would text you. I just wanted to ask, if you are ok with the script. You seemed so lost today. Good luck tomorrow. Taehyung."

While staring at his name for about two minutes, shivers ran all over my body. He had called me by name, he had remembered me, he was worried about me.

I don't deserve this.

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I know this chapter is so boring .-.
BUT TBH who can't relate to Mina?
Isn't everyone of us here a little bit like her?
Sorry if she seems nasty, but I can tell you, she also has really good characteristics. Keep that in mind pliss don't hate lil Mina.
<3
Thanks for reading :3
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