YOU ARE READING the first time i Poetry the stages of self hatred. [© avaleo 2014] #harm #hatred #poem #suicidal eleven 511 41 1 by avaleo by avaleo Follow Share Post to Your Profile Share via Email Report Story Send Send to Friend Share Post to Your Profile Share via Email Report Story the first time i looked in the mirror with disgust was when i was eleven. when i looked in the glass i saw a fat girl with short legs and a big nose and squinty eyes. i hated the way i looked.