YOU ARE READING the first time i Poetry the stages of self hatred. [© avaleo 2014] #harm #hatred #poem #suicidal twelve 450 43 0 by avaleo by avaleo Follow Share Post to Your Profile Share via Email Report Story Send Send to Friend Share Post to Your Profile Share via Email Report Story the first time i started hating myself was when i was twelve. i thought i was awkward i didn’t have any friends and i wasn’t smart like the other kids. i was useless.