Thoughts

No please

No please
Not this
Please wake up
Not like this
I wanted you to see things
See me succeed
See that your little sister isnt dumb
See that i can make you proud
Please wake up
Dont close that coffin, shes alive!
Cant you see shes faking and wants attention,  ill give her that! Ask her many questions, make my energy her life support,  ill even switch places, but i cant, and i dont want to, but i would,  just please wake up, have you ever thought of how i will feel? mom? Little sisters? I only wanna help, dont wanna make you angry, dont wanna annoy you, dont wanna pry it out of you, ill leave you alone,  just please promise me you'll wake up...

Nothing...

No sound.

Just darkness..

And then i wake up again...

From my deepest thoughts...

I touch my face "tears??... Its been a long time snice i cried.."

I dont like this feeling, i want it to go away...

But i will never... Hurt my self...Ever.

I have people to live for too...im not stupid amd selffish,.. I lobe certain people that i dont wanan loose, i wanna die at old age not young...