Sombre et Lumineux

I lost

I never get lost

I will never be lost

But

Something change

And I couldn't figure it out

Where am I

In this world of darkness

Dim light

Dark shadow, follows me

I keep seeing the lights, but not the meaning

How far will I go?

Where is the start

When you never knew what it was

How you believe in it

That there was a light

Across this journey

It never cross in mind

That this will be the end of it

And I find myself crying, not literally

But, my heart cries over and over again.

And my head keeps turning around.

Maybe, I was the one make it worst

The one should be blame for it.

But what did I do to make this state right now

How can I figure out the answers?

Are there be an answers

I did rabbit usually do

I run as fast as I could

That no one can never be found

And I stop, wondering, asking again and again

What is this for I am doing?

Why did I do this stunt?

Where am I going?

Is this the answer to all of these happening?

I did it for once

I will do it twice

And I should do it again for the third time

Expect the worst

For all what we came from

It's unclear but difficult to be clear

A shade of blue but bluer than green

Deep sea, deep ocean and don't scare me

I'm already lost, where else should I be

Am nowhere to be found like what I wanted?

But is this what I want?

How long will I become a shadow?

How long will I wait to happen?

Whom I should lean on when the time comes

Is there someone who knows about me?

Is there someone who could give me a shoulder to cry on?

And now, it's judgement day

I'm wondering what will happen

Should I wait what's next?

Should I stay for a while?

Coz I can't. I'm hurting, yeah. Forever

Where will I be? When it's just the same. Nothing's change

But something came up

There's a tiny dust covering with unknown

I see a glimpse of it

And now it became bigger and bigger

Is it true, that in every darkness

There will be a light after all

But why did I wait too long

How did they do this to me for a long time?

Am I that bad to chase what's mine?

After all, I don't have to call MINE

Coz in the first place, they OWN me

A piece of trash and a sheet of paper

A packing tape and a full of bull

In this last 50 letters,

I would say thank you

Love you even the hate is there

Wish you a happy many returns

Even you curse me a million times

For this thing to be happen

And will not hold you,

I will now raise my white flag

Au Revoir