Withered Lines

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"Thank you for coming," masayang sabi ni Jake pagkatapik sa balikat ko. "This means a lot to her...and to me."

"Oo naman," I replied while nodding. "Habangbuhay nyang isusumbat sa akin 'to kapag di ako pumunta."

"Thanks,"

"Para saan?" Nagtataka kong tanong habang nakatingin sa kanya.

"For talking to her," sagot nya habang nakatingin sa babaeng nakasuot ng wedding gown. Sa babaeng mahal namin. "I never got the chance to thank you personally...for talking to her about the benefit of the doubt thing."

"May pagkatsismoso ka rin pala 'no? Nakikinig ka sa usapan ng iba," umiiling na sabi ko pagtapos uminom sa hawak kong wine glass.

"I'm sorry. Hindi ko na kasi talaga alam ang gagawin that time. Sobrang cold nya sa'kin to the point na hindi nya talaga ko tinitignan," nakangiting sabi nya habang nakatingin pa rin sa asawa nya.

Puno rin ng pagmamahal ang mga tingin na iyon. And for some reason, medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko.

"Pasensya ka na rin kung itinago namin sya sa'yo. Alam mo namang takot kami sa kanya," natatawang sabi ko uli at tumingin na rin ako sa tinitignan nya.

"Ayos lang, kasalanan ko rin naman. But it's all in the past."

"At alam mo rin naman sigurong kahit na kasal na kayo eh you can't get rid of us,"

"Oo naman, pipilitin kong hindi maging seloso." Biro nya pa.

"Jake, usapang lalake. Huwag mo na syang paiiyakin unless kung dahil sa sobrang tuwa...ayaw naming umiiyak sya." Seryosong sabi ko. "Lahat kasi kami natataranta," sabi ko ng may konting ngiti habang nakatingin pa rin sa kanya.

Napansin nyang nakatingin kami at naglakad sya palapit habang itinataas ang wedding gown nya. Naramdaman ko na lang na nakayakap sya sa akin.

"Thanks Ry!" Masayang sabi nya habang yakap ako.

"Basta ikaw," bulong ko.

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I just came home from her wedding. She looked very beautiful in that wedding dress. I sang for them. For her. I sang her favorite songs, the ones that we used to sing together. I can still feel the lump in my throat. It hurts, but she's happy and I want to be happy for her.

Blog Entry #2 Someday (Posted via web)

Imagine what your heart can do for someone you love.

At most times, love seems to destroy everything if it’s too much.

It may be hard for them to understand why you care so much, and why you choose to be with them most of the time. I guess even love is not a perfect thing. Love will break your heart. Give you reasons to hope for nothing.

But the best way about love is you learn how to care, you teach how to care.

You learn how to respect and let others learn what respect is.

You learn to be there and they learn to be there.

And I believe that's the reason why God created such kind of feeling — even God himself longs for your love right?

Love cannot be controlled. It amplifies emotions and what you really are.

If you love someone you find negative things about you and you change for the better.

I think that's how love is supposed to be.

You change constantly until you’re a better partner.

Love is hard to find. You invest on something and yet you'll find yourself in the wrong place.

Love is supposed to give meaning for everything. It grants "special-ity" to something that is so simple, and yet simple things your partner do makes you feel better.

Love is sometimes hard to understand. It gives way to every reason, negative or positive but we tend to forgive.

We accept failures but sometimes it’s tiring, and we say we are giving up but we never do want to leave them.

Love doesn't need to have gaps. If you say you love someone, be there. See that person everyday and you still have that spark when you look at them. Don't end your day mad at each other. Always compliment and surprise them.

Love is a trial that never ends. And the trial you'll face need not to be avoided.

Love is when SOMEDAY, you'll realize that when you're old and you look at each other, you'll remember each other’s beauty and you know that you lived your life loving someone with all your heart and your soul binds together for the rest of your lives.

Sorry for loving you too much.....

04302014