Gustavano's Owning

Chapter One- Good Daughter Gone Wild

The time when i flew to California, book a hotel and went wasted every night was merely a free taste for my parents cruelness to me. Pinaggul-gulan ko ang sarili ko sa mga walang kwentang gawain.

I even get myself a tattoo at the lower side of my right breast, its a sunflower with a beautiful stroke of a phrase under it "she must beloved".

After the death of my lil sister Jennathania, nagkanda leche-leche na ang buhay ko. Ako yung sininisi nila. I also blame myself for that incident. Hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko noon, until now. Kinakaya ko na lang.

I was their two little goody shoes daughter, i love them with all my heart that i never once tried to disobeyed them. I fear for their disappointment that i graduated as the valedictorian of our university.

I was address as a nerd or greek at our university but i believe i am not. I never tried going to an extremely enormous party but i wanted to, i'm just too chicken to defy my parents just by once.

I'm never a rebel but now. I never tried defying them but now. I gave them all what they wanted me to be but now. I was like a prisoner in my own self and in our house.

Baka kasi dumugo bibig ko pag sinuway ko sila.

Now, i got my freedom. I will never ever go back to that place. Not until they'll open up their eyes and accept that i will never agree to their proposal. They got me on my neck in all but its different story when its my will to choose who to love.

"It's for your own good, Celestina." Aniya ng mommy niya. "And for our family, my daughter." Dagdag pa ng kaniyang ama.

"That's completely unacceptable father!" Nabigla ako ng sobra-sobra na I didn't care what might their reaction to my sudden outburst. Sino ba naman ang hindi?

"Watch your tone Celestina." Father in his warning tone. Paano ko makikita yun eh tono nga lang?!

"No. I let you control my life. My whole goddamn life but getting me wed in a complete stranger? That's b-" before i even got the chance to cuss i close my eyes and stop myself. Baka dudugo bibig ko nito, wag nalang.

"Nalubog tayo sa utang anak, we need you to do this because you're the one who Mr Guztavano wants for his son." Sabi ng kaniyang ina na inabot ang nanginginig nya nang mga kamay and squeeze it lightly.

I let out a heavy sigh, paano hindi malulubog sa utang eh sugal ng sugal? Kung sana sineryoso nila ang kompanya nila edi sana walang ganito ngayon.

"Kailangan natin ang pera para sa lumulubog na nating kompanya, hindi na kami makapag loan ng Mommy mo anak because we still owe the bank a hundreds of millions" sagad pa ng ama niya na ikina-iling niya lang.

Ngayon may pakealam na sila. Ako pa talaga binobo nila? Kainis na buhay to.

"Let me think of this." Even when I'm on the edge of bursting out, i still have the respect for them that they don't deserve. They can't even respect my rights or even just as their daughter damnit.

Syempre after i said that, walk out agad ako not after i said "excuse me" baka sabihin na namang "Saan manners mo"

Pinag-isipan ko kung ano ba dapat kong gawin, syempre me so wise talaga, i reasoned na i wanted to take a break muna so i could think about it properly. Sabe ko I wanna go out of the country for the min time kaya pumayag naman sila kaagad.

Nang umalis nga ako hindi ko mapigilang tumawa. But as soon as i took a step sa eroplano, hindi ko mapigilang hindi makonsensya.

Pinaghirapan din naman nila yung kompanya, pero kasalan din naman nila ba't lumulubog na iyon. Pinagbenta pa nila ako sa walang hiyang negosyante na yon. Ni hindi ko nga alam anong klaseng tao ang mga yun.