My Perfect Imperfection's (boyxboy)

Chapter One

Sorry I haven't updated. Now I'm going to be mean. I need at least 8 votes before I start writing! Yep, I've never tried this, and I need everyone to show the love! 

I sat at my dining room table shaking uncontrollably. I felt as if I was going to cry. Maybe I should just run away... Maybe they will stab me with a fork and try to cook me for being gay? Yeah, that's defiantly whats going to happen! Dear God I'm going to freaking die by my evil family! 

I was awakened from my thoughts by laughing. Wait, laughing? Why were they laughing, do they not believe me! Oh my God they don't! I looked up from my plate and at my parents and brother laughing hysterically. 

"I'm not kidding! I really am! I like guys! I like men! I want to lick honey off other guys abs! Why do you people doubt me!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, probably in too girly of a voice. All they did was laugh harder. 

"Honey-kins we know you're not lying, we just thing its so freaking funny how we knew this!" My mom some how was able to say in between laughs. By this time they were all crying from their evil laughter. 

"Why do all of you little whores laugh at me! Yeah that's right I called you whores! Especially you mommy dearest! Muahahahahahaha!" I said, while standing up shaking my butt. I can kinda see why people think I'm just a tad bit weird.

 "Jeydon calm down. We don't hate you. We could never hate our little girl-I mean uhm boy." My father attempted to calm me down by saying. "Jeydon you are fine just the way you are." He smiled, while getting up and hugging me. I felt so loved. Too bad they were never here. This is one of those special times that they are home and not working late at the hospital. I just wish we were all here together more often. 

After another twenty minutes of awkward dinner time, we all went our seprate ways. My parents got called in for an emergency. I am currently sitting in the living room staring aimlessly at the TV with Spencer. There was this tension that seemed to be there, and not going away. I broke the silence, and attempted a conversation with my older brother. "How do you feel about this Spence?"

"Jeydon, lets not talk about this. Mom and dad may not take it as a surprise with you being gay and me too, but Jey I don't know if it's a good idea for you to tell the school. You are so freaking small and what if people bully you, oh my fucking God Jeydon you can't handle that! Maybe I should get one of the guys to be with you if you come out. NOOOOO!" Spencer paced back and forth the large room. Who knew my big bro would be so protective, I mean I'm almost convinced he thinks of me as a little sister. "Jeydon! What if the guys don't support you! Maybe I should be with you! what if you get a boyfriend if he hurts you! I swear I'll kill him! I will!" And I thought I was strange....

"Okay for one, I'm your brother not sister, I don't need protecting. For two, I'm a big boy, NO GIRL! Three, I'm pretty sure 'the guys' are who would beat me up... The football team is always the ones! I've read enough stories and seen enough movies to know that. And four, I don't want to come out to school just yet." I faded off thinking about how I knew I was gay in the first place. The answer is simple. Jake. 

Jake is 'the nice guy' who I just so happen to like... He is the reason I know for sure. I always thought I might be gay, but was never completely sure. But, Jake... He's just gorgeous. His beautiful brown hair, his grey eyes that show so much emotion. His flawless tanned skin, and his perfectly muscled body, and tight shirts that show off a six pack. Not to mention how nice he is. He looks like a stuck up jerk because of his stunning looks, but he is so nice and I've never once heard one rude, or mean comment come from those perfect lips. 

Jake is my dream. Hell, he's everyones fantasy. I know that Jake is straight, and I know that if there is that non-existent chance that he is at least bi, then he wouldn't want a little skinny, wimpy, crazy, and random boy. He doesn't want someone like me... 

I ran out of the living room, and up to my room. Tired of my low self-esteem thoughts, and just tired in general I layed down, and drifted off to sleep, and into one of my Jake filled fantasy dreams.

Yes, I'm aware this isn't that great of a chapter, but I forced myself to write. I know its short, but I will try to make it longer. I kinda just got out of school for summer, and you would think that would make me happy, but I have high school next year... I had to leave behind friends and stuff.... It makes me sad.... I will be better soon though! I will make the next chapter better! 

-Holly