A Bestfriend's Worth[COMPLETE]

Chapter 23

My head is gonna explode. I don't really want this life, sometimes I wish I wasn't Jessica Louise Cordon.

Expectations against limitations, I hate it really bad. Why do I always fall inlove with someone, and will hurt me in the end? I'm a big fat jerk in love.

I was in my cousin's house, Leila. I asked her on how she got the perfect boyfriend... "You just don't get the point yet Jess, there is a right time for that. Remember, when a guy is keeping a secret with you, having a half-hatred incident with you, and tell you that she is inlove with some other girl, she's the one.", those words was kept inside my heart and also in my mind, always.

I don't know, I don't knpw about anything. I don't know how to fucking love! This Justin and I is bullshit, I wish I never go on this stupid life.

Someone told me a qoute, let's just call her Ms.S. Well, Ms.S is a very wise person to me, but I just don't really know her.

She once told me that I could always believe in love, even though it really hurts so bad. You just need time to wait for the one. Hard times may cause, but loving a guy, is an oppurtunity for once.

I always keep those qoutes all to myself, these memories with my cousin, Ms.S, Justin's love that never lasts, those experiences with them taught me that... I was the one too selfish about it.

Ughh, my mobile data will gonna lose any minute now if I continue watching Riverdale.

I love watching Riverdale. Betty is my inspiration in that movie, cuz she always believe that every girl needs a revenge, especially when your bestfriend is included but needed to excluded with no cause. I fucking hate Sherry in that story, even though her brother, Jason, was murdered. I am sorry for her too ONCE, because she was accused that Jason's death was putted in her hands, thanks for the fucking otopsy (I'm sorry, I don't really know what is the spelling of otopsy😂)