So in the end I couldn't tell him and now I'm paying the price. I felt so happy because he sits with me all the time and we're becoming really close. On the bus today he said it's right hand day. Meaning I could do anything with his right hand so I teased him by bringing his right hand to my boobs not really gonna let him touch me there. I pulled his hand away and he said awe I was getting excited. in the end he ended up touching my boob but only for a second before I slapped him away. I talked about him on the way back to my friend. I messaged him on Facebook and he ended up saying he didn't want the bet to go on and made up a lame excuse. My heart hurt when he told me and I called my friend for comfort. She told me that I shouldn't talk to him anymore but I couldn't stand to lose him completely so I made a plan. I'll start with stopping our touching so I don't have to feel the warm and fuzzy feeling he gives me. It's going to be hard but it's something I need to do so I can crawl out of this hole I put myself in. Tomorrow I'll start the no touching thing. Thanks for listening journal.
