Runaway

Chapter 11: Jersey?

Flora's p.o.v

We are not dating. i refuse! i ran off after he said something about dreams turn to reality. why does he have to be like that? he's making this harder for me.

I checked to loaf, it was finally ready. i started to cut the loaf slowly, i didn't want to go back to Ben right now,what he told me was just...agh!
"Oh come on!" Ms.Arena yelled out laughing "you two fight, tease around, make lovey dovy eyes at each other, your practically married already" did we really look like that?? thats not good... "mom! she can hear you!" Ben loudly whispered. I looked at my phone and checked the time. It was already 5, i have to prepare for school. i felt Ben hugged me "whats up?" he asked. "gotta get home"."need a lift?" I nodded

We went outside and he made sure my helmet was on properly. checking the bottom of it to see if any smoke would enter and we were off. i hugged his back, his warm muscular back. i looked over at the streets of New York. i saw Fernando and Julio walking with one huge cheek each. i tense up. I'm glad i kicked their asses, its what they deserve. I'm just glad they didn't see Ben. He would've been in danger, i cant risk that.

We arrived at my house by the door. i didn't want to talk to him right now, "is something wrong?" he asked as i opened my door and closed it behind me without another word. "what-hey, your just gonna-"."yes i am, go home..." i cut him off knowing what he was going to say. i walked to my room and fixed my dream catcher. I'm not getting another nightmare, especially after the day i had. i put my iPhone oh my speakers to listen to Ariana grande's 'yours truly' album and fell asleep on my bed.
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I went to school, Ben has been wanting to talk to me and get near me but i always ran away. whenever he pokes at me in first period. i pretend to be asleep. it hurt me so much to do this, but what else could i do? i have to keep him safe.

Usually, i pay attention in class all the time, ever since i first came to school in my 10 grade year, i was always interesting in learning. since i hardly ever went to school when i was in a gang. Martin tutors as much as he can. he's the most caring out of all of them, and i never understood why. he knew what to do when i accidentally inhale chemicals, knew how to make me feel better, he was smart, he knew what to say, he never killed or robbed...not that i would even know. he would always try to hide some things from me...i just dont get him...who is he really?
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Its been 2 weeks since talking to him or Ben. i admit that I'm pretty lonely without Ben's cocky mouth and words, but he might've forgotten me already, since he has all the girls flirting, drooling and twisting their hair for him. I slowly calm down as i move away from him more and more.

I often see some of the gang some at a time once in a while. thanks to my super fast board and disguise, they don't pay attention to me. i desperately want to beat them up again, for all the years of bull shit, yelling, planning, lying, and killing. that memory of finding out that the ones that died in front of me were Bens family stayed in my head everyday. the guilt build up in me everyday. i couldn't shake it off.

Mom and dad came home last week with small presents. Rosa got some toys and booties for her feet since its been snowing. its freaking February 17... why did it have to snow? Im not a fan of the cold. I'm always freezing my ass off at the base. i always refuse to move out of my bed whenever they were going to do some stupid shit. dad got me some pretty scarfs and mom got me Uggs and mom gave 2 keychain hearts when connected together, it makes a full heart. she wanted me to give it to Ben whenever we ever get close one day...i didn't say anything about it. but it was a very beautiful piece. it was soft clear glass. if i held it on my hands, my hand would look smaller. i really love it.

Right now i am getting ready for school on a freezing friday morning. I don't know where this cold came from. Two weeks ago was perfectly fine. i could wear shorts and not freeze my ass off. but now? its like the universe didn't like something and gave me snow. It was really hard looking like a nerd in winter. i wore a long pink sweater that reach the end of my butt. i wore shorts (not like their visible) with black legging under them. my light brown Uggs, my nerd glasses and my silk pink and white scarf. I put my hair in a 'disney's frozen; Elsa' braid .it was a pretty braid. but i could never be as pretty as Elsa, and as awesome as her ice powers. After i was done with the braid, i put on a baggy white yarn beanie on, covered my left eye with my bangs and went downstairs with Rosa near my feet.