The Existence [ On Hold ]

The Old Hermit

Wijaya had met the old Hermit before he could transform his existence from the human world into the Siluman world, the world between human and soul world.

He said to Kusuma that he will informed her when he face his death, more precisely his disappearance. He focused on his search alone after he thought Kusuma had her priority in her life. It has been almost a year they were separated. He knew, Kusuma focused on her carrier as an architect, she insisted to reach her highest position before her thirty, so she would not had an enough time accompanied him. It is a relief for Wijaya, at least she leaved not to other friend but leaved for her career willingness. He didn't have to worried about her. She could surpass her obstacle herself. In his deep inside, he hoped they will meet each other again.

In his life, before he met Kusuma, he had finished his willing of life. It was not because he had a struggle life. It was not. It was merely because he had already pleased with his life, although he was not born in wealth family and his achievement on study was only common. He came from a happy family, a humble family, and fortunately a free family. He wondered why he didn't has any willingness like others. He even didn't want to marry, didn't want having a lot of money, even he didn't urge to have many friends. The friend whom he thought suited with him only Kusuma. He thought it when he met Kusuma for the first time, the excitement came across his whole body, even his mind also. He remembered the first time they met. She was in her unconsciousness and came to the soul world where he just entered to search someone in those realm.

It strange, something inside him was activated when he closed to her. That was why he was more than happy being with her in almost three years. He got his enhancement in all of his part of his life. Even, he got stronger willing to find the answer of his question about something mysterious he didn't know himself.

In the end, he had to let go of her to accomplish her willing. They had separated path. He promised himself that he will met her in other realm someday. He think, Kusuma only has a temporary play with her fate. It will suit for her and make her path easier when the time came for her to go back to the path where she belonged to.

Wijaya laid down on the grass in Lawu mountain. He remembered, today was his birthday, his 24 years old. He imagined when will he find his answer. Was it need his whole life, was it close now?. He didn't know, really didn't know. He had been three days in the top of Lawu mountain. Fortunately, the top of this mountain was wide. There would nobody bother him to empty the space. He could choose wherever he wanted to stay in this area. He felt safe here, felt like home. Right now he was waiting for the sign whether he was allowed to do some meditation or not. Usually it would take a week for him to got the answer. He came to the soul world. In those world he met other soul that would be affected when he did the meditation here. Energy within his human frequency would disrupted the soul world balance, so he needed to make sure that he would not make harm to them. He gave them a week to decide, a warning to prepare themselves for being interfere by his energy.

In his third day he felt someone came, but it was not a kind of a soul as he usually met. 'What is the different?' he asked himself. The intensity and the energy, someone who came has higher energy intensity than many soul he ever met. He looked to the person. It was a man, old one with a white long hair. Skinny, because of his height. He was wearing a white long dress, his hand hold a brown wood stick where he looked like an old hermit.

Wijaya gave him smile as a respect. He returned the smile with cough.
"What are you intense to do next, young man?" the old hermit asked him
"I want to start my meditation"
"Why would you do the meditation?"
"I need to go to some place"
"What place do you mean?"
"I don't know, the place that always attracted me to go there" Wijaya seems rather confused because he couldn't answer the question with exact sentence. He knew that he himself didn't know for sure the place look liked.

"How do you go to the place where you yourself doesn't know the kind of places? Are you insane?"
"Sometimes we don't have to know what the definition of something in front of us rather we know that we can go there and find the definition when we already at there" Wijaya defensed his pride.

"And who are you? I rarely met someone like you whether in the soul world or in human world. Your energy seem heavier than them" Wijaya interrupted the old hermit question.
"You have a question weather you are allowed to continue your meditate or not, don't you?"
"Yes, are you the one who will give the answer?"
"Yes, I am. But I need to make sure that you will not go to the wrong direction, mean you will not affect the balance energy within the land" He explained
"So, what do you want me to do?" Wijaya needed more information.

"In this two days left before you start your meditation, let me ask you a question. If you can answer it then you can start your meditation, if you can't then don't ever imagine to try your will"

"Understand, ask me please. I'll give you the best answer!"