The Existence [ On Hold ]

Walk

Kusuma has finished packing her stuff into her bag. She continues to walk to the top. She plans to reach the top of the mountain before afternoon. It is the beginning of September, the rain would not started to fall and the heat has released welcoming rainy season. The weather is so perfect for climbing.

She takes a walk slowly one step to another, saving her energy for long path forward. There will be long hours especially when she goes alone. The time would be faster if she goes with some friend. Jalak bird following her step. It is common that those appearing of bird means the mountain welcoming her. She smile to the bird. She even talk to the bird so she is not in her quite scene.

While walking, her thinking going through her life she has passed. Her family always force her to act her best, it best for her career but they didn't realize her willing. She think her mind was manipulated. Her mind has been constructed to follow their willingness not her own willing. In those state, after she has reached her highest position in her career she asking herself 'what next?'. As a site plan manager, she has been gone through many struggle effort to make her plan perfectly satisfied. It is stressful. She needed to bargain with many people with different behavior and background. All her surrounding include her environment always bussy with their own task. The city is not giving them a time to relax and think beyond. In the end, she find nothing interesting more. She want to quit this shit circumstance. She want peace.

Intuition which growth in her inside help her many time she has in danger. She realize something. Her intuition growth best when she was trained by Wijaya. She belief in her deep voice, it never give a lie. She has succeeded to manage those of her ability and implement it in reality. By that fortunately she could avoid many assault from her business rival. Within her action she truly could saw many deceives, lies, politics and manipulates behavior in the community. Sometimes they act ignoring their pride. She seems hide many thing and ignored it to make her position safe. She always manage to not harm other, even she has the chance. She please that her innocent still be with her. She thought lately that she face the war actually.

Nothing special in her walking to the top. She just feels the jungle welcoming her, sent her a soft wind. They looks like welcoming an old friend. It is what she feels too. She seems meet old friend. She don't give her intuition play a lot even sometime she couldn't manage them. Sometime they appeared themselves. She activated her intuition when there are a choices she cant decide which one.

Some friend ever asked her whether anybody could get the same intuition like her. She answer 'Yes, every person has it naturally, but they just didn't realize it'.

"How do you got your intuition?"
"Actually I didn't know when it is began. It was appear itself. I realize it when my friend told me" she gave explanation to her friend whom asked her about intuition.

"I just know its intensity. When you have a clear state of mind, it shown stronger. But when I have many presumption and opinion the intuition will decrease, somehow we can't find where they gone"

Her journey today is lead by her intuition. It said that she can find Wijaya and she can ask as much as she wanted to know. She think Wijaya has many library to answer her question.

Seeing a mountain coral, she know that the top of the mountain would not far. She climbs exhausted, but remembering the top is near it burn her vibrancy. She will end her walk soon.

Finally, she find a great savanna. The place she know by look at the grass. She sigh. She has reached the top of the mountain. There are seven peaks in Lawu mountain. Each peak has its character. The people will separate depend on their goal. Only three peak are famous. For mountaineering mostly they will take Argo Dumilah peak which is the highest one. For people who want to meditate but in common place they will take Argo Dalem peak. The third peak is Argo Duliling, as known as the misterious one compare the other peak. As its name is large known by the people, the city then used it as a name for a national Train which bring people from Jakarta city to Solo city but the name become Argo Lawu. Another peak are not common for people, except the extreme climber because the location only can be achieved after climb some cliffs. It usually being used to train a special task force.

Kusuma has no idea where she should go. She take a while rest in the wide area full of grass. The beautiful mountain peak scene she missed.

'pinarak lenggah putri
mugi kang akaryo jagad pinaring kekiyatan'

She slept for a while, in her sleep she listening a voice from a woman. She cann't see the woman. She know the sentence she heard. It is a welcome greeting. The language come from Javanese language. Its fine language, the polite languange, only use for the person in higher level or for the older. She think, she is not fit for that languange especialy from the person she think older than her.

She wakes up. The sun goes down, the afternoon soon left. She need to go the shelter which the same as food store. She put her smartphone and her camera. She forget to use them while she is in her way. She turn her smartphone button to make it on. The signal is not good. It will drain her battery faster if she still made it on. Fortunely in her location the signal is good. Many message sent in her account. Social media give her addiction. She need to throw it away for a while. She turn off her account with the last message.

"Let me tells you my adenture where the time come, miss me guys". She smile to herself.

There will be many of her friend will look for her. She has another thing interesting this moment. She has managed her job also. She has one requisite in her agreement with the owner of the project. There is written that if she success bring the project she will get her one month break of work. The team will handle the project with owner as a leader directly. She need to use it wisely. She has planes this journey two years ago when she decided to joint the project.