I wanted to hate myself
For being so stupid...
For continuously hoping...
For relentlessly dreaming...
For not being able to erase your name
In my head...
For not being to forget your smile...
For being jealous to every woman
whom you'd passed by...
I am so jealous...
I feel so insecure...
I wanted your attention all for myself...
And the most ironic thing is,
I dont have any rights to do so...
I'm so stupid...
I have a bachelor's degree...
My M.P.A. diploma is hanging on my wall...
I have a few units of juris doctor with me...
And yet, when it comes to you...
My brain wont just work...
I'm hurting right now...
I'm in a terrible pain...
They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder...
But why it had not apply to you...
We havent seen each other for days..
I terribly missed you...
If only I could pull the calendar so that
I could see you again..
But damn! After days of not seeing each other...
all you could give me is a nod?
A mere acknowledgement... A civil greeting?
You have not even asked how my days went...
How's my exam? How am I coping up with all the
Stress and sleepless nights of reviewing...
Everyone's concerned! Damn you!
Even our boss had asked me and wished me well..
But you... Of all the people I had come across to...
The only greetings and concerns that I want to
get is from you...
A simple smile... Some words of encouragements...
I'm not even dreaming for a pat on my shoulder...
All I wanted is to hear that somehow, you care...
Isn't that too much to ask?
I'm not asking you to love me back...
I know it's impossible..
But could't you even considered me as a friend?
Kahit friendship ba, di mo kayang ibigay?
Kasi nasasaktan na 'ko...
Nagpapakatanga na nga ako sa 'yo e...
Hindi ko hinihinging suklian mo yung nararamdaman ko...
Pero wag naman ganito..
Na para lang akong hanging dumaraan sa harap mo...
Kung di mo ko kayang mahalin, okay lang...
Wag lang ganito.. Kasi nasasaktan na 'ko...
We're moving in circle...
You are running away...
I am chasing you down...
And when i finally decided to totally give up on you,
Then you'll act again as if you care..
And the stupid part of me, will again fall for you...
And then you'll return to the old you...
The cold and icy stone you...
