have you ever felt nothing and everything all at the same time? it's like, the whole world is crumbling, falling at your feet, but you can't quite do anything about it because you're just … overwhelmed?
I don't understand it really. I don't know why I find myself getting sad all the time. I have so much, but on the inside I just feel empty.
numb.
things keep happening, the world is progressing around me, but I can't feel it.
it's sort of like when the dentist gives you novocain. it hurts at first - just a tiny pinch - but then by the time the real pain comes, you can't feel anything.
I'm reaching a hand out - drowning in my own sorrow - but there's no one to pull me out.
I'm sorry that I seem so dark and dismal. nowadays, there's just a cloud of gloom over my head that I can't get rid of no matter how hard I try.
I'm fighting a losing battle.
the funny thing is … I'm only at war with myself.
