Journal Entries // glum and sunshine

Part 5// Sunshine

My first I love you

Being a girl, you fantasize about your first everything, your first kiss, your first boyfriend, your first time, your first I love you.

It's something we can't help but do of coarse, growing up from a small child to a teenager, your thoughts wonder constantly on your future, and so when one of these things happen, you feel butterflies in your stomach, and a goofy smile appears in your face; because you are so in love with the moment, you feel loved for the first time, undoubtedly and unbelievably loved with that certain individual.

And so you see yourself differently, you catch yourself smiling when walking down the street, dreaming about that special someone after such an important moment in your life.

Love songs suddenly are clear in its meaning, feeling the same way as the poet who spent endless nights writing them and perfecting every little detail. You fantasize about every little thing, from those warm nights as you are wrapped in an embrace, to the first date, and the gazes he would sneak in towards your direction meanwhile in class.

Feeling loved, and so content with your own persona that no one can ever bring you down from cloud nine, from feeling as if you are on top of the world.

It is a heart warming feeling, that heats up your cheeks in a mere instant. A feeling I will never forget even if things are not bound to end well.

The way he said those three little words, were the reflection on how he really felt, and in my case;

I was asleep. Waking up to the sweetest message I; as a girl, can ever receive. That of the words

'I love you'

*~*

First 'I love you'
September 17, 2017